真係5好隨便翻看舊照片，因為看著看著就笑了，但到最後，看著看著，就哭了。。。
太難。。。

原来爷爷入噶地方，比我想象中噶恐怖，听讲嬷嬷吾愿意入去探望，因为去到果边，见到噶情景，可能会令距更伤心，同胡思乱想。so i asked my mum, does that means, there is no way for my grandpa to return home? and if my grandma is not going there to visit, then when can they meet each other again?

we don't know.
really holding my tears.

grow up itself is not scary...but seeing your families around you getting old..is....

I am just sux at departure. can everyone just be by myside please?

no matter what happen, 要記住笑容應係我嘎招牌。

熟悉又陌生嘎face
appear in my dream again...and again...
the feeling of miss comes and goes...
好烦
好烦
好烦

傷口還在隱隱作痛，繼續自欺欺人吧，because life still needs to go on....
Please slap me on my face and tell me that,fairytales do not exist.

Almost lost my patience when i am waiting...oh GOD i know you have been always good to me, and i know you know how much i want to go OZ and meet my mum there - to do things with her, to exercise together, to hang out with her, to be with her...especially now that her best friend is not by her side. i don't wish to imaging how lonely she is. Its time, its really the time that you should bring us together again. This urge is getting stronger, i really hope that we can support each other physically.

Lord, i believe you have a plan for me. meanwhile, i will just do what i think i should do, and patiently wait for the good news to come.

Bless us. 

decided to convert those over emo post into draft....its time..its enough...its time to keep quiet...its time to stop saying...

just want to say that, i really feel happy for your graduation too...saw the photos and make me miss those auckland days...no regrets...and thanks for the memories.

会不会某一天，你已把我忘记，但我还在思念你？

recently having too many plans in mind...but not much action can be taken at the moment...messy mind...

11oct gonna go for  the driving test...hmmm hope can pass it at first attempt...

just hope things goes well... but i guess i am not working hard enough...how should i improve myself and realli know what i really want?

and come on..i realli hate myself for not being a punctual person.........if i still cant get rid of this super bad habit ... i feel so fail...come on come on!

九型人格分析

第四型	藝術型、浪漫者、自我型、憑感覺者 85%
第一型	完美主義者、完美型、改革者、改進型、秩序大使 75%
第二型	助人者、全愛型、助人型、成就他人者、博愛型 65%
第七型	快樂主義型、豐富型、活躍型、創造可能者、享樂型 65%
第六型	忠誠型、忠誠型、尋找安全者、謹慎型 60%
第九型	和平型、和平者、和諧型、維持和諧者 60%
第三型	成就者、事業型、成就型、實踐型 45%
第五型	智慧型、觀察者、思想型、理性分析者、思考型 40%
第八型	領袖型、能力型、挑戰者、保護者、權威型 40%

我的九型人格分析？

心，好重，好累。

Maybe ur right, before that, maybe i really expect more than it should be, and now i realise, your life is really completely well without me...i am totally just a "someone else" now...

你唔會再為我花心思，唔會對我有特別待遇，不會特別在意我說過的話，甚至，可能見面都可有可無。畢業那天，感觸特別大。你不會再花心機去找我對你說過嘎太陽花，可我卻意外地在別人手中收到了，那一刻，我實在有太多感觸。

4個月后嘅你，開心依然，點解4嘅月後噶我，還要流淚。

扮堅強真係唔容易，點都騙不了自己的心。真係好想大喊一場，但好難，有人在，會控制住。。。不過依家，真係覺得好辛苦，有好多心入面嘎說話想同你攤開講，但係接下來的幾日怕尷尬，所以講唔出。好辛苦好辛苦。

聽日希望可以按計劃，可以獨自在WAIHEKE 散散心，大喊一場，好怕壓抑到心痛。

發覺有D心事，真係只有同番女仔講，先會明白感受。因為D男噶，似乎根本不能理解我門的感受，因為他們永遠都那麼闊達，感情永遠都不是優先。

不夠理性的人總是輸家，例如。我。

好累了，不想想了。

被一个SHOW 里面个女仔嘎一句话感动佐：

“大家都知道分手后各有各生活，要MOVE ON, 但系做唔做到，又系另外一回事”。

mum says my temper is very 燥 after i am back...hais...what happen to me? i know this will hurt her but i can't control..is it because its my first day? or is it because i feel insecure in sg now?

hope things will get better soon.

maybe its really true that gals are tend to be more sensitive and small gas? i really don't know how to deal with the emotion when i think that u are completely okay while i am still feeling sad. i hate that u hang out with the bitch but i've got no right to say anything isn't it.

if only all those obstacles are gone...u can be the one but i guess you just love yourself more.

wake up cyt! welcome to the cruel reality.