stay cool

this sem...or maybe recently...really taste the feeling of "hard to breathe"...haix...feel really breathless..don't know is bcoz of school work...or project...or working...or other activities...now...trying to make some new movements...

firstly...aunt just help me ask the "zui fu lou"...the chinese restautant...hmm...said they will call me...heard is $6 per hr...also quite near house...once they contact me...i m gonna go there and try...if it suits me...then...erm...

nx step...call the tuition agency...

then...fri if nth's on...will go nafa apply for the part time course there which is called "basic western art"...hope things will go smooth please...yea...art...colors~

next week finance test and duno which IT module quiz i think...jiayou jiayou...and ecpj...jiayou too!

erm...think me and grandma bad for good le bah...still never say sorry to her in real life...but bought the milo and milk powder that she wants...hope she knows what i think...

for work...not sure where the stress comes from...but one of the reason maybe is bcoz...i still can't sure of that feeling and it makes me feel like don't know how...i don't want to continue like this...haix.end.


[devil beside you] sweet show!

nice song: for you i will by teddy geiger.

sianz

have dinner with grandma and the family.early celebration for mother's day at a chinese restaurant at thomson. Finally.forget when was the last time we eating together outside.sighs.but so...haix...mother's day? i can't even able to celebrate with my mum...so instead...i tink i will treat my grandma.fine... but it's quite an nice meal.and i ask my aunt to help me ask if there's job vacancy and the ans seems positive.but they are busy so find out more info other day.also havent call those agency number...shld kick myself to call them soon. well...just tired of rt already maybe...trying to find new jobs...

havent get out of my messy world...everythings seems so messy still...and i want to blame myself for not brave enough...didn't go for the things i interested just bcoz frens not accompany...so unlike last time...well maybe i already lost that braveness and courage...how sad...this make me feel lost too...we live for ourselves not for others...so why let others affect u?haix...no no way...i shall not care much...must find my own aim asap...but maybe my true freedom can only come when complete the poly life...well...

sorry mum...send u the cards late...and still dare to ask u buy me a laptop...and thx that u agree...now is my problem...lazy to take the action...

since that stupid feeling comes and goes...i shall not bother...

feel very empty...many things missing in my heart...but who cares...just heck.

eye sight's getting worse...shld i get contact lense?

pain arhhh!!!

shit...my tooth super super pain now ...cause me headache also...cant eat also...must be eating too many chocs recently? arh...hope i dun have to go see dental...it's the most scary place! arhh....

about friday:
super blur during finance tutorial...the teacher make me feel kinda stress also...start to worried liao...buck up buck up...been too slacking already...late for lec...some even skip...then never revise...like wasting time in school? time to stop this already...arh...and shld try to sleep earlier!!

then went cine sing the 2 to 7 pm kbox.expected...yvonne join us hafl way =p realised we sing quite a few female songs...so conclusion male songs nicer? ahha...

food republic full house...then i suggest go ramen ten AGAIN... must be sth wrong with me...have staff meal at ramen ten during work...then...even go out also go eat at ramen ten...siaox me. but this time is coz far east one got new menu...wanna try.

there also full hse...must wait some time to be seated...yea py ard 8 came? haha...coz sum1's working? lolx...juz kidding aniway...they all say the food is better than amk one...i nv order any main course...like nth want to try except the sushi...but it's really not bad...

shir von and sw left first...then the rest of us go wait for elaine off...outside mrt...at first they wanna go home i guess? but don't feel like wanna home yet...then suggest have supper...lol in the end all the 6 of us on...then go long john chit chat...feel abit sad when saw some ah ma need to work at late night...haix they should be sleeping at home instead of working at this timing...why...

cut it short...in the end we share cab home.tired an good day. it was like stay up from 6am sth till the nx day 3am sth? opps but after that kanna nag by grandma...

movie

初恋嗱喳面
(Merry-Go-Round)

一个暑假，谷佬带着儿子谷锋,女儿小谷咕开了一间嗱喳面店，希望在为期两个月的短期租约内，创出中年男人第一次也可能是唯一一次的成就出来。面店开张，谷锋带来了一个平凡得不可再平凡的善良女孩子Carlily来帮手，Carlily还带来了率直粗鲁姐姐Heman。

虽然大家的工作错漏百出，却无损一班年轻人朝夕相处的乐趣。小谷咕亦同时发现一个天天着校服，每晚都在打佯时份带同一个禾味婆来共吃一碗嗱喳面的神秘小男孩禾味龙。禾味龙原来是个孤儿，由禾味婆一手带大。禾味婆靠执纸皮为生，却最疼孙儿，所以每天看见禾味龙穿着校服出门，最是老怀安慰。

穿着校服的禾味龙一天出现嗱喳面店，原来他自动请缨，希望可以在面店觅得一份散工。从此，小谷咕有了一个经常与她玩IQ题目的好哥哥。禾味龙还不时送小谷咕礼物，虽然那些礼物都是禾味龙味禾味婆执纸皮时拾回来的。谷锋与Carlily开始拍拖，因为他们会一齐影贴纸相，他们会共饮一支汽水，他们会在过马路的时候，稍稍拖一下手仔……，还有谷锋对Carlily说：你的眼神，世上只有我一个捉到。 　

禾味龙将所有IQ题目和心事都写在一本小簿上，只可惜一天忽然不见了，禾味龙决定重写一本一模一样的。然而有一天，他忽然看见小谷咕手上拿着他那本遗失的小簿，还向他展示里面有趣的内容。禾味龙剎那间虽然感到脸红耳热，但更令他兴奋的是，他们从此各自都拥有一本一模一样的小簿。

Carlily的家姐Heman，总是与谷锋针锋相对，狗咬狗骨。两人却意外地在一次（街头王比赛）的赛事中成为了优胜者，更获得一份免费游日本三天两夜的奖品。在家姐Heman的调虎离山策划之下，终于让Carlily可以与谷锋共赴日本，而Heman则搬到谷锋家住上几天，以掩饰陈家父母以为是两姐妹一齐去了日本。谷锋在日本，晚上打了个电话回家，接听的竟是Heman。一个电话，触发了一段有始无终的对话。他们从日本的电视节目谈起，说到世上有鬼，说到恋爱有否年龄阻滞…………，直到最后Heman说了一句话："我现在睡在你的床上啊." 谷锋才猛然惊醒，想到一个陌生女孩子睡在自己的床上。在往后的漫漫长夜，谷锋因为这句说话，一直都没有再合上眼睛。 　

翌日的旅游计划是往上野玩木马，谷锋与Carlily在JR地车上却来来回回经过了四次池袋，四次涉谷，四次神田，四次上野。因为，谷锋在车上睡着了。谷锋发梦也想不到，初恋的代价竟是将第一个女朋友变成第一个伤害的人。谷锋因此而沉默了，Heman因此而对小谷咕，禾味龙说了一句话：原来有些东西，只要喜欢一下，已经是错。小谷咕，禾味龙百思不得其解，只知道事态严重。终于，Carlily哭了，向谷锋提出分手，谷锋的世界从此变成只有黑夜。

在某个黑夜的黑夜，谷锋走到Carlily的楼下向她表示，他会在她的楼下跑四个圈，因为他可以做的，就是这么一点点。谷锋终于跑了四个圈，比池袋去上野的四个圈还要漫长痛苦。Carlily在决定跑到楼下的时候，谷锋已经消失了。可能，世上所有事情，本来就是如此。 　

禾味龙的禾味婆决定要将禾味龙送去保良局，因为她要回乡安渡晚年。小谷咕关心禾味龙会否寂寞，禾味龙告诉她，每晚寂寞的时候，他都会想他们玩过的IQ题目，同埋，会想她一次…………暑假将结，嗱喳面店亦将结束，两个月的经营，没有为谷佬成就出人生一大创举，但却成就了两段嗱喳的初恋。原来初恋是：爱念萌生 关系夭折 暗恋 成功 示爱 失败 吵架分手 突然痊愈 然后揽住第二个又爱又憎......


-->that day accidentally saw this show on tv again...rainie is so sweet in the movie...zhou jun wei also...sweet...this time watched it...feel so touching...plus the background music which is kelly chan's "我们都是这样初恋的"...super nice...maybe becoz it brings me back some of the memories...因为果张千嬅噶YES!CARD...将我地拉埋一齐...初恋...短暂...sweet...simple...pure...and innocent. 保留心中...

recently got quite a number of nice song...chen-i's deng dai...cao ge's shu dao wu da ying wo...etc etc...make my day...

emo night

thurs lesson starts at 8am,never slp well the night b4 also...ya it's hard to wait all the way to 6.30pm for the kicking yea...so don't want keep forcing u also le...hope nx week can make it? well...but...nx week got e-com presentation plus proposal...haix...see how bah...and guys...if nth suddenly pops up...hopefully nx friday we can go kbox as planned...mayb the 2 to 7 pm one...

today another tired day...lesson at 8am also...it really kills me to wake up sooooo early...but what to do...



after school at first want go home rest b4 working one...but in the end change plan then pull sw and shirley go grassroot...had my 2nd time choc fondue there...this time the serving is smaller...erm...quite ok bah...

then working...at first still can be alert and energetic...but i guess ard 8 plus...my eyes really shut me down...plus the seafood fried rice mix with the fondue...don't really feel well...feel so dizzy...when they ask me if i m ok...ya again guess is coz they see my face like tired like that...i just smile lor...or ans YA i m ok...because i don't want to say i am not ok to burden them...and i am trying to get back to normal...so can don't keep asking me...i don't know how to express to others that i am not ok anyway...i am trying to be ok okay...and i will be okay...point out my mistake and ask me wake up if u think i am getting worse ok...but i can say i never slack today lor...so why...misunderstanding is so irritating! guess try to avoid work on fri...i tink i really can't stand it when wake up very early...go school...then work...affects myself...affects other...i don't want.

it's quite sadden really.so near yet so far.the distance like getting further? i feel happy to see u all after some time...but surprisingly...i rather keep quiet when i see u all...maybe is becoz at the working environment...or...complicated feeling...maybe think too much lor...but it's not the same le for sure...wonder when will have kbox like last time...wonder when will la kopi like last time...wonder when will see u all lame together like last time...wonder when will have nice chats like last time...wonder...

okay...but nth i can do...now working...ya maybe just like what winston said...i m like a zombie walking here and there...ahha...coz i feel aimless...maybe...hide in a shell...maybe is a better way

enought of saying...still...will try to keep my smile =)

food

tried this chocolate Fondue.expected whole piece of strawberry instead of slice ones...haha...What's next?Yummy~~

i think to travel around the world and to taste all different types of food are the most happiest dreams in our lives...

but now...not leisure time already...haix.
Mother's Day is coming...time to make a card soon.Grandma will be back soon,will treat her soon as well...

i will not agree with these words..."as long as to see the one u like is happy with the one he/she like...u will feel happy too." really? how to feel happy if u can't be with the one u like...

phew

decided to keep the previous post to myself...once got write it out feel better le...shall update some nicer stuff here...smile =)

project time is coming again soon...stress are expected...but hope we can overcome it and work together =)

nx wed is photography club orientation, thurs is bei quan dao trial, fri sat work, sun drum...whee...

got visit sher's doggie hershey...ultra active? lol haha...hmmm and want to play with kenny asap~~

hmmm but still...want to say that...i don't smile doesn't means anything! i m trying to be more serious during work only...okay.

on

some pple very on one...while some are not so...sometimes u feel excited to plan sth...sometimes it just makes u so frustrated. haha...whatever...

some pple...u thought u already know them quite well,but maybe is not...sometimes...u feel u are close to some pple...but mayb they don't feel this way. watever la... izit bcoz school reopen soon...? so messy ...sian la.

nvm.it will be fine i guess?

up comings:
monday: 12 meet @fe. take the rt test. then shopping.
tues:change to kbox @cine meet @ 10.30
thurs:buy books? then work full
friday:seoul garden. meet @1pm. confirm plus chop.
sat:shhhh

haix the past weeks i have failed to arrange my timing...super super paiseh la keep changing the schedule...i rather they scold me than to say nvm to me...won't do that again.

is this me?

firstly Happy Birthday to meh!

after having lunch plus tea break with king@ crystal jade,i rush home and going out meet anna and meh at far east...meh's fren edward also there...and he looks abit matured compare to last time? do u feel happy today? i hope u all did..r u drinking the breezer now? haha...sorry coz i really not sure if i got brings u joy today...sorry...i owe u a piece of cake ok peiyu...nx time after ur exam...jio u go eat cake ok? sorry today i actually wanna stay overnite but my cash can't withdraw frm the atm yet...shit... haix i really treasure the time being with u all really... all the friends out there i really miss u all at this moment.

i don't know what's wrong with me but i just suddenly so dislike the present me...it's like so duno wat...fake? unfriendly? just very negetive...shit...i m like abit losing myself? where the hell m i? shit.

and suddenly i feel abit sick with working. or tired? i tired to hear all the things about working...but who ask me like to buy this buy that and i still gonna pay the drum fee by self...so i gotta continue...but i think...mayb far east is worsen...mayb? haix...no complaine la...u want to have money to spend? then u gotta work what.

to my sec school friends...plus some srjc ones...hey i really miss u all really...haix...i hope things won't change that much...and i hope we will meet each other soon.and meh...i just don't know why but really hope today didnt make u bored ok.

rt pple...i really cherish the time being with u all...maybe when school starts things will not be the same anymore...will not have that much time to see u all...haix...but...haix...hope won't have big changes...but...mayb working just makes some pple change...esp those with big ambitioins?

school gonna reopen again soon...sianz...hope our class can continue have funs together...chiong arh...and wondering abt the cca...

haix but still...where am i? is this the real me?

shopaholic

finally ysd got to talk to meh on phone nia...update lotz news to me...haha...saturday see how's ur plan lar...

shopping today...or mayb shld say window shopping...thought i got nth want to buy already...but then...human like me is just so greedy...saw alot of stuff that wanna buy...hmmm...like that how to save money? sounds so impossible...haix. hmmm and duno why today very lady... and quite interested in the lady stuff...izit bcos i m with the ladylike piggie? haha... and now we got silver nails...ahha...

realise now so many shops sell the lace material clothes...new trend ya...some quite nice...gothic eh?

hmmm shoppinglist___ top,shorts,shoe,skirt,personal stuff... all like over 30 sth...hmmm slowly slowly...

tmr take pay day...after work go king house...think watch "wishing stairs"...scared but want to watch...hmmm...like like dun want to believe this stuff also cannot? like got so many real stories...

mei nan zi hairstyle really nice... now channel u got jimmy lim...bring back childhood memories?

but...why now suddenly feel so empty and aimless? shit.

past event

arranged my photos and neos,bring me back some memories...haix...how i wish i could turn back time sometimes. and all of a sudden...i realise i like have no feeling for anyone at the moment...haha...like no motivation? but it's ok,fine with me...still have fun with friends...the one? believe will come one day...shun qi zi ran =) hopefully can continue being cheerful...

--=--=--= --=--=--=--=--=--=--= THE PAST --=--=--=--=--=--=--=--=--=--=--=--=--

last monday nite to wed morning...go ramen ten chalet...at first feel abit uncomfortable when being with some unknown crowds...but slowly getting better and had fun playing games and being at the beach.meanwhile also watched "2 become 1"...not becos intereseted in the story but miriam yeuang and ren xian qi who are acting in the movie...haha... wonder why the swimming pool there is not allowed to use...and the chalet ended by visiting the red house...details at mel's blog so lazy to write liao.

last friday...opps i m late for the drum lesson...like again...really paiseh nia...prac the song "something abt you" by five for fighting...abit hard...but learn some new rhythms...quite nice.

after that go cafe cartel@ PS...meet them to celebrate elaine's bday...caramel there is not as nice as coffee bean one...haha...then walk around,go arcade...both the ps one and the mrt there one...didn't know there is an arcade at mrt there...interesting...mainly play the basketball game...woohoo...got free games =p then also go eat fish&co...mainly eat and play that day muahaha...have fun...the details...i know they know can liao =p hahaha...(die die must use this sentense)

eh...don't think want eat cafe cartel le...like not very nice...fish&co still nice la haha...food brings me joy~

(are u sure this one is nice??!)

yesterday,sunday,was suppose to meet @yck at 830 but i told them i really cannot wake up...in the end...tink reach east coast slightly earlier than 12 sth...? hmmm ya feel kinda weird...like nth to talk to him...when kat return her bike and chatting with arcoz...i told them i go cycly myself, i mean it...i want cycle alone...but then he still follow me...scared i lost my way back but sorry...i really want alone ok...by then i can feel abit relax...haix.

then go ramen ten have dinner...by then i feel better...i tink i choose the right place to have dinner...somewhere i familiar with and with them ard.phew. arh really don't know nia...ask me if want go nx sunday again... i was like don't want to put myself into this kind of situation again...but if i reject...like don't know what...but mayb...once feeling gone...hard to b normal fren again...or mayb only apply to me? haix...dont know dont know.

wed

whee just return frm rt chalet then slp till 6pm~wohoo...kinda shiok nia sleep till i like...haha but lazy to write about it for now...mayb ltr.

time passes so fast...now left slightly more than half month only?lazy to run here and there already...mayb nx holiday then plan my travel plan again...thailand or korea or taiwan nx time?! this holiday one spoilt liao..but nvm...waiting for the nx holiday to recharge~yea~

so now...one so called fan nao down for now...so...can have more time to do my own stuff le...like...swimming? hahaha...hmmm...sunday one...should i go? but...how to face him...sumhow abit awkard...

when u can't even able to make sure of ur own feeling...there's nth u can do. when u don't feel secure...it's hard to move on.

abit miss my black hair nia...always needs time to adapt changes...but then again...there's something made me quite ok with my current hair also haha...

24march

hmm...tired.
wake up at around 2pm? then meet kingyu...sorry that i spoilt the plan...never swim and stay over nite...shall not dye my hair first...and i scared they nag me...so better go home sleep.nvm..keke there always a chance.hmmm...about my hair...the color called light blonde? don't really remember...hmmm...make me feel very moody on wed when i work...no confidence and feel kinda weird...some suggest me go highlight...but today...after shampooing...i feel better...somehow don't know why...and some of them gif me some confidence...yea i tink i shall not bother about it already...lazy to do anything about it already.let my hair grow back bah.

back to today.erm...shop around with king...when i meet her...she told me my hair make she feel very energetic...then she said my wallet nice...don't worry it will get dirty bcos it's white...just do and buy the things u think is right for u...don't too care about what others think...she's kinda independent somehow.yea...i m care about what others think...but who doesn't? haix.but in the end didn't buy anything and she still haven't settle her present for her fren haha...eat ajisen...hey i seriously prefer ramen ten ok...walk the whole day...but feel like not really in a shopping mood...coz the main reason we go out is to meet each other and chat...itz kinda hard to meet her...coz her jc seems quite busy...the nx meeting might b some time after le...hmm...mayb i will break my promise? mayb me and her will try both things? drink and go...see club... one day? don't know...some times it's kinda weird to talk to some one in mandrain when i know they can speak cantonese...feels weird...but when other pple are ard...switch between cantonese and mandrain somehow makes me feel weird...can i talk in cantonese all the way?haix... hey ya...WILL NEVER GIVE UP OK. JIA YOU.

after that watch dorm with ling derrick chuan and winston at j8...at first don't really want to watch wan...coz don't want watch scary show...scared...but in the end...the story is a touching one...eh...tears come out le...touching...and kinda sad...

" don't need to understand guys"?...yea i don't bother already...sometimes u feel closed with some people...but sometimes u feel that u actually like don't really know them well after all...so should not bother too much le...and ya...can a person very closed with ALOT people? suddenly i lose confidence in such pple...nvm i understand enough already ahha...and ya...starting to feel numb towards working...don't have the energetic feeling already...want to tell andrick i sumhow miss him la...miss his lame face nia...haix...i tink slowly...my working attitude will back to sqaure one again? hopefully not but who knows...don't bother.

shit i always regret about my decision...again...hmmm dat chalet? got abit sian feeling for now.

tmr will not be home again...hmmm...

lucky again

phew... can continue my holiday w/o worries...hmmm...should i change my "last min then study" style? now thinking back is like so risky...

suddenly feel like doing some household stuff sia...firstly bought the cross stitch which currently got ard 6 lines there only...then bought alot raw chicken wings again...plan to cook it by self again~hopefully this time no raw taste...then bought jelly powder...want to try make jelly also(if u want eat tell me lolx)...too bad my hse don't have baker...otherwise can try make other food...hmmm.

last saturday early in the morning go see mel's idol audition...hehe quite nice...then after that meet anna first...plan to cut and dye hair...in the end reach there...told me my hair dresser quit liao...all the way to commen wealth do nth sia...hmm and now suddenly no hair dresser for me...then jurong pt those...dye one color 129 plus sth...too ex liao...then after that meet kat...at marina square...see cat walking awhile...got cute gal =) then finally found a wallet! white ripcurl! kinda riskly nia buy white...coz i m like kinda dirty type haha...hope can keep it clean for a longer period coz i like it!nice ripcurl.



got go foodfair also...lol food leh...must go take a look...erm...the fishball not bad...but overall the food there not that impressive nia hahahaha...

plan to eat steamboat but all feel like abit full...haha postpone again...in the end go longjohn eat...both of them now very enthu in playing the maple story...hmm the characters qutie cute...but i kinda lazy to redownload and lazy to play? haha mayb one day sian sian then try bah =p

Then sunday also consider early in the morning meet derrick mel jw chuan and liling go out...lolz i m the first to reach there? eat n shop awhile then take neo...keke...now realise guys got more facial expression during take pic...more fang de kai...haha...but sianz 2pm nid to go back work...should not anyhow make promise...hmm...i don't want da qiu to take over me coz i want him enjoy his day...hmmm m i made a wrong decision? coz in the end he like left early also...then i work 2 hrs then let him take over le..

ysd...yea finally manage to go swimming...with eve...all the way go woodlands...but haiyo havent swim enuff then rain...sian...though i don't wanna get tanned but i rather see the sun than rain...

amk ramen ten now got lotz changes...stupid far east...haix...mayb needs time to adapt...but definately not now...i don't want u all go!!!!! ps: rmb don't overstress urself...u are a fulltime student,not a fulltime worker!and smile,don't be so sensitive...relax.

hmmm later should b go cut hair...dye? mayb?

up coming plans-------:
-wed working
-thurs should be meet ky...swim at nite...staying over at her hse
-fri afternoon drum lesson.
-sat work

more plans-------:
-jack's place...haha...must keep my promise to piggie nia..
-seoul garden. (all plan to eat on weekdays...student price~haha)
-more sports! swimming..cycling. and kboxing...cooking...movie?

nice songs and korean

Nice songs make your day. just dl few "xian jian qi xia zhuan" songs...really nice! esp ah san's "yi zhi hen an jing". arh...nice...got feeling arh.

arh...korean so nice~~~

[typical mei nan zi with mei nan zi hairstyle!]

[nice smile...]

tmr go saloon...hmmm tempted to dye the same color as him.but don't know what his color calls...hmmm should i waste money on dye hair again?

rest at home

enough. i think i was abit overloaded. something is missing in my heart and i don't know why. feels abit messy and empty. nvm...slowly sort out...hopefully...

finally...have a good rest today...don't really want to go temple so nv go with them...hmmm maybe don't dare to go inside...? don't know... arh why nowadays become more and more dang xiao like dat...shit...

missing some people...some old friends now. especially...

轩.heard that u are doing fine now...i felt better somehow.coz you did nth wrong yet i did this to you.mayb you don't feel anything now already? but the memories somehow in my heart...i don't think i got the courage to see you again...you are loyal and good to me...not easy to find nowadays...guys nowadays...dots...really no comments.hope you will continue doing fine...

her.haix why suddenly become like dat?coz i graduate b4 u do?the sms u reply is abit cold like that...i wonder which school u get in...i miss those days...should i msg u again? but i don't want to read cold msg again.i wanna go swimming wif u again haix...

her.we are thousands miles away.to follow ur dream so u went to uk.hard to keep in touch online somehow...but everytime u back i know our feeling will be there again...though we may have experienced diff things which change us...but hope that relationship won't change.

颂贤.i still rmb what u said after our p6 exam...that time i feel nth and i think the feeling is short coz we are still so small.but i never told u this...now my turn...and i don't know why...until now...the special feeling for u never fades...but i know we are impossible.just frens.when can i see you again...and i will keep this in my heart...

雷鸣辉.暧昧? 系.我比五到PROMISE 比任何人.系你话我翻去可以揾你...but since u like that.i got nth to say already.

and more...in my heart.

i thought i will feel nth for the changes in rt but...no...i did...it affects me. u said i worry too much? haha wonder if u feel that my worry for others is extra...ok but i think i don't care already...ya worry so much for what...will pple appreciate? mayb they just think u so extra...talk so much.

tuesday

go there talk to the lady...but...erm kinda expected...nth can do to change the result...nth can do except accept it lor...my mum ask me to get over it again...and ask me go other places sia...ahha...see first bah...mum...never give up.

then...today shopping again...nearly overslept again...but in the end still late...sorry nia =x yesterday and today both have nice days...life without working sometimes are just great.really relaxing...get a top that kinda like...but i spent most money on food.erm...ya...eating is the best thing to relax urself...hmmm but wanna jian fei lei...hmmm...but...still...can't resist food...the far east ramen ten...price higher..but food...no comments. took some neos...muahaha...hmm but still haven't get my wallet and pump...mayb slowly find bah.

got my cross stitch that day...the precious moments one...a gal with doggies...till now nearly never touch it yet...wonder when i can finish it...eh...few months? then...wanna learn some cooking lei...wanna exercise more also...wanna get away the fats...but my determination level somehow kinda low...

today is the last day andrick work at amk rt...they said eat together so i went down after say bye to py and sw...hmmm...although he only change to another outlet...not quit...but sumhow bu she de...and not used to it...haix wonder what are the changes will be facing...

have chats with them...everyone has their own minds and thinking...i have my own too but i guess sometimes i m easy to get affected by others...and i hope my words can make them feel better somehow...rmb don't let the environment and people changes u to another person...don't lose yourself...mayb u will feel that no one understands you...but mayb others also feel the same way?erm don't know what to say...just be yourself...we care for each others...even though it might not be shown.erm...any fan nao just pour it out and share k...everyone got their own xin shi and stress...don't think too hard...learn how to relax sometimes...and at this stage...i don't think we should take our "job" too serious..."work like u don't need the money"...i saw this from a tv show and i think its right. my mum said in the future more than half of your life is working...don't work too hard now...enjoy more...she always ask me go learn something new...erm...but lazy nia...cross stitch is new for me anyway haha...and gonna resume my drum lesson...kinda slack liao.

hmmm wanna dye hair also...but lazy now again...opps...and hope to meet my friends again soon. =)

we all need an listening ear.and we can be the listening ear also.

why reject again...

WHY? i thought 2006 is quite a good year...but why...why do this to me again...why turn me off again...why...

why so heartless...do u people read the documents and files clearly...? do u do u? i m so confident u know...we all so ready u know...why can't u just let me have a merry holiday?why like dat...i don't understand why...why must u break pple's hope again and again... why like that GOD tell me why like dat...

i m sorry mum...i always can't do things right and properly...i really not sure if is me whom spoilt all this...i m so nervous when the lady ask me question... u scold me loudly when i told u what i said...i thought u will scold me even worse when i told u it's not successful again...but u didn't...instead u stop scolding immediately and ask me to pull myself up...go buy what i like or go where i like...to get over this...u are so understanding...i tt u will scold me but u comfort me instead...yea mother always knows what she should do and say to comfort their kids who are being hurt... i scare u will b very disappointed also but u are stronger than i think...and u also sense my feeling now...no one can replace this...the bonding of a child and mother... i think...

i even saw quan yi feng there...i m so confident to tell myself... wow...must b a lucky day...why...i don't understand...our time money effort wasted again...i don't care...i hope monday i can try my very last best...though i know the chance is little...

so i stuck here again...going nowhere.

haix when i am ready to go to the IT show today...why call and tell me this...why spoilt my holiday and spoilt my day today. why u pple just so cruel?why break me down again? haix.

jia you

[ Smile More!]

yea yesterday had lunch and dinner with grp of friends...yea m really happy...i don't know how to explaine the feeling...feel double sweetness when frenz treating u sth? food or movie or watver...not becos u get it free...i sure u understand...is the joy...arh i duno how to explaine also...but is just sweet...at least for me...i will just feel so sweet =)

i think i really should not think and complain too much...life after all...aint that bad actually... at least when i say i want buy something and complain i have no money...they will buy for me...even though nag at me say why i got work still no money left...opps...;at least when i say i m hungry...she will cook for me even though she haf work the whole day and tired...;at least when i feeling down...i have them to talk to and share our feeling...; er ...and at least when i nv study for jap test...i can copy? lolz haha...opps...yea but feel guilty...and sumhow quite like the jap teacher...hmmm. although there are some problems that still not able to solve...but dun care liao...juz leave it aside first ba...shun qi zi rang...

erm...and i want to say that...actually u dont have to do anything to entertain me...u just need to be yourself...sit beside me...talk to me normally...i will feel happy...i won't feel bored or wat one...and i hope that u won't feel sian when i duno how to react to some of ur jokes =) keke...

arh...mayb becos the econs paper is on next wed so i don't feel the pressure yet? but i can't stop worring...must pull myself up...arh...pass all~

PS: i swear i will never walk back home alone at night anymore! that's too scary!!!

exam timetable plus cny

Exam TimeTable:

22-FEB (WED)
12:30PM - 02:30PM
BM0035
PRINCIPLES OF ECONOMICS

27-FEB (MON)
08:30AM - 10:30AM
BM0034
STATISTICS

28-FEB (TUE)
04:30PM - 06:30PM
IT2502
OBJECT-ORIENTED PROGRAMMING USING JAVA

02-MAR (THU)
08:30AM - 10:30AM
IT1604
DATA COMMUNICATIONS & NETWORKING

03-MAR (FRI)
08:30AM - 10:30AM
BM0036
MANAGEMENT PRINCIPLES
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This year's cny visit jk,yvonne and piggie hse...thx for the treats and the ang baos =) arh esp yvonne hse...got 3 dogs,but their hair all shaved...haha...and doggie Kenny is my favourite...hmmm...thought he is a baby doggie...coz his size is the smallest...but in the end he is an ah gong dog le lolz.cute~ arh...after exam shall find some excuses go her hse again =p lolz. hmmm wonder when i can have my own doggie...

[Kenny the Dog]

the past weeks got quite a number of activities...go ray hse play, mid nite kbox with rt pals,shopping,firework etc...nice ones.

and after so long...finally i leant cashier...feel abit excited?...and i like the sound when i press the buttoms..keke...ok shall put in more effort when doing whatever things...

feb stop my drum lesson and work lesser...exam month mahz...hope march faster come.

jia you jia you!!

cruel world

mum...i feel very helpless...how i wish you can by my side now and tell me how should i face all these...i feel like a losing kid...i duno where i belong to...i feel so homeless...but u know...talk thru phone is not the way to help me...i can only express myself better face to face...i don't even expose my deep true feeling inside my heart to you...even myself...i m trying to numb myself into my own world...

mum...i am scared to get into the cruel real world...coz if i got hurt...i scare i can't stand up again...tell me what to do...

hope the time pass slightly faster...hope that our wish can finally come true.give me the power to continue live strong by self...i need motivation.i really not good to deal with long distance relationship...all kinds.sumtimes i really want to blame you...coz i feel like i becum nowadays state is all bcos of you...i cant be with my frens..i cant have a normal home...and i lost them...ya i can't even gif myself promise how i able to give them? no one will wait for u...pple juz fall easily and forget u easily.

feb is gonna be a tough month..projects and exams...hope all of us can promote to the next level.work hard.

and wish that the [b.l.o.c.k.e.r.z] time will be back soon...hope all the misunderstood and unhappy arguement gone soon too.

to my friends out there...hope you know that smoking and drinking is not the way out...

recently...addicted to the song "zhe mo" by 183 club...haiz.

happy bday mum!

To my Beloved Mummy...

Happy Birthday!!生日快乐! I Love You! rmb to take care of yourself...God bless my mum please.

bsb concert tonite

Tonight 8pm...Backstreet Boys' "Never Gone" Concert@ Indoor Stadium...hmmm...i'm not a good fan...i didn't go their concert...i don't feel good...wonder when will be the next time?haiz...who knows...haiz...BSB...support you Forever.hmmmm.......................

When you feeling down...take a deep breath...relax...and tell yourself that it's gonna be all right...

Friends,when you feeling down or when tears filled in your eyes...what i will do is be there for you...lend you my listening ear...keep quiet...wait for you to cool down...put my hands around your shoulder...sayang...and make sure that...finally... you are all right...hope you know that this is my way of caring you.coz i don't know how to express myself well.sorry.

well...sometimes maybe i will just cry with you...oppz.

What if i feel down or cry? lolz....i think i will prefer to go to the toilet or an empty place to cool myself down...lolz.

messy feeling

messy feeling now... thinking about lotz of things...

firstly working...still the same style maybe...just dun want to get involve in working life so much... some people do change after they get into work..at least i heard the stories from my friends...i just don't like working life...but somehow have to....hmmm and too bad...must face it one day...haiz...so sick to think about that...also u won't know what type of pple u will meet... i think i'm quite lucky to be in ramen ten...at least pple are nice...especially them =) but what if u are in those office company or wateva...i think i must see too many drama shows...but who knows?mayb the real world is even worse...haiz...innocent is such a good word...i hope u won't lose it. please...stay nice,cute and sweet.

another point...why pple just like to say the words which demoralised people? can't they just be more sensible? but anyway...considerate people won't say in this way.i kana so many times b4 during work. let's say...if i saw u forget to put the saurce for...like..gyoza bento? i will just say..."hey you forget to put the saurce." finish.short and simple.but why they just like to say in this way --->" wei u forget to put saurce...u haven't wake up izit? or u in dreamland izit?" MUST YOU(more than 1 person) SAY IN THIS WAY? DO YOU KNOW THAT MOTIVATION IS IMPORTAND DURING WORK? did you learn management before?oh ya..maybe not. or sometimes i feel tired...so my facial expression abit weird...or never smile... can't you just like say in a nice way " you ok not? you looks tired...try to smile or sth" ( i rmb last time our parttime supervisor did so...datz why i like her) but u? you will never ask this,u will never notice if your staffs are tired or under wateva pressure...u only how to say"what are you doing? you look like u want to die like dat etc..." hello!how would you feel if u are in a bad mood and very tired? well i really don't understand you. u are nice? or no? i really can't judge...i really confused. i mean...when i do things wrong i feel abit panic already...i still must listen to your this kind of words? i shall numb myself during work man...i dun't like to hear this kind of words...as some of you should know,i got told you i super don't like to hear people say "shut up" to me, but i m glad that u got change.phew.type it out feels a little bit better.

Why must people drink beer or smoke when grow up?why....~ Gang partner...rmb...keep the promise --- no drinks,no smoking,no pub. go park and cycling is more fun hahahaha.

i think Projects really a BIG torture...not only the content itself not easy...but the people u gotto deal with...well...conflicts..then...comes...but hopefully...it solves by itself...can't do much about it also...2 more weeks to finish all the projects eh? chiong arh...well...and to avoid the unnecessary misunderstood...beta know what can joke and what can not joke sia...

CNY is coming...again...haiz...i miss those days...i miss all my hong baos ...not like now...so pathetic..gotta work to numb myself...nvm..should not complain too much...i still believe my true freedom and happiness will come one day...Mum...we will never say give up. and can not give up also.

i still rmb i got this old friend who suddenly told me this last time ....she said nowadays...she will keep a distance with all her friends...mainly her new friends...i was like asking WHY? like that how to call "friends"? she told me ...only by doing this...u won't get betrayed by ur friends...she told me she got betrayed by her friends b4. actually i was wondering...what they did to you is consider "betray u" ? i don't really get this concept..coz i tink i nv experienced this b4...i don't know...but is true...i start to scare to know new pple...i wonder how long it takes to know a person really well...i really scare to get hurt...well...but maybe these kind of things are born to be complicated...let the nature take its path.

Friday go kbox with ramen ten pals...derrick 7pm sth reach liao then alone singing for an hour i tink...shiok bo...then slowly one by one reach...haha...i think he no nid the mic can sing as loud as us liao.then i like the four of them sing the "xiang cao ba bu". now then realise their " ba bo" is referring to this song...aiyo never tell..nice song mah...i like it too...then well...yea then i tink sing jay chow song can find fly,sing mayday song find wen...sing duet song find mel? haha...too bad onli LL can sing cantonese...hmmm...then winston and Z like the audience like dat...seldom sing...

AIyo and the last song is my "AS LONG AS YOU LOVE ME"...about to sing the chorus...it stops~they off the system~aiyo. then 3am left...and ton at mac till 6 plus...well...they got lotz lame jokes...not bad ya...then go home sleep awhile...and go work.

OVERALL...a nice day~oh ya forget to mention friday morning go nyp open hse help out... i think choose the wrong duty liao...sian sian one... eye candies no more liao...left 1 or 2? lolz...yea tony dance cool!

Don't look back coz it will hold you back.

sleep late week

the whole week like sleep very late...too bad not really becasue of study...but reached home late,using com and slacking...so shall not complaint tired ya?

past days got countdown see fireworks...eve bday...anna bday etc...and i think this week i m quite in a good mood ^_^ but...kinda stress and disappointed in my study...i have been slacking the whole week~nv touch ani tut except the management one...and didnt score well in stats test...haiz...cannot like this i know...i must chiong for my dream...go to the place that i want to go!
and i m still broke...i tink i really cant make it for BSB concert coz i m really broke...hmmm...don' mind go their concert alone but i m seriously broke...yet...i still willing to spend money for fren's event.i think i have changed...to better?i think nowadays i m more generous towards pple ard me...at least i got this feeling.

i seriously broke and need money...and i trying to work more...but...i just feel that work is least impt...so when i received a fren's msg say she wanna meet on fri coz she wanna chat with me about sth...can sense that sth is happened to her?so i juz immediately reply her "how about have dinner together then"... but actually fri i already put my schedule to work~and rmb i really nid money now and i nid to work...but i juz heck...i can cancel my working hr to spend time with frenz...i just don't understand why some pple treat their work so impt even though they are still student and it's just their part time.we all need money but i juz won't chiong until like them...for eg...some ramen ten pple really chiong like siao? why not enjoy ur life more?

wow i still feel tired though i juz woke up ...
got my little mermaid hp chain...haha...i like mermaid =)

...then that day after midnite saw sly outside cine...he's smoking...skinny...just looks like an ah beng...heng he's not the SG Idol.spoilt the image.

i think lasalle's life is kinda colourful...but...hmmm...slack?and kinda feel diff frm typical poly lifestyle...haiz...why pple can't stay as innocent as b4...rmb to be yourself...don't let the environment and pple ard u Change you to another person...

lesser dislike pple...and cherish the ones ard you.i seriously miss my family coz now i m like all alone in my hse mentally.

Everyone's changing...miss the old time's B.S.B and H.O.T...haiz.

blog b4 2005 ends

Wow i m kinda HIGH now...wow...my fren is coming...wow~these few days...ok la...not bad...except nid to do projects.

blog before year twozerozerofive ends~

last thurs Dec22:
exchange presents with my class gal buddies...muahahaha...i received shirley's one and i gave mine to lq.then xchange cards and eat chocs.

last friday Dec23:
morning drum...then meet shirley...followed by sw,eve and her fren.the world is small...his fren work at ramen ten too...but is fareast branch.go east coast cycling.raining and my white shirt becum super dirty...wow.next time should try roller blade too!

last saturday Dec24(x'mas eve):
go Expo...cityharvest service...nice show...and got many blue blacks due to the rides.then last min go down ramen ten xchange present. i buy the turtle...its cute~! i want it too...haha...

last sun (christmas)

work half day.then go orchard with meh and anna.super crowed.and we slacking around as usual haha.

Dec26 monday

we accompany anna choose her wedding dinner clothing...

tues to thurs

been in school.doing the same thing.project.but half of the time...maybe slacking?ahha...

yea. tmr...31st dec will be a good day! see meh perform...then count down...then if still can make it...go find my fren~yea.

Happy New Year!

miss u

The main reason why i don't really want...or scared to welcome those special days like chrismas...new year etc come...is because...they make me miss u all terribly,but i can't see you all i know that...that's the saddist thing isn't it...and can't deny that...although nearly after a year already...but sometimes...i still think about how we were in the past...hopefully this won't last long...coz...it's over.and the one in usa...guess u won't expect u are missed by me too...oh ya tinghui...did u know that today when i walked pass a buzstop, i was so shocked that i saw a gal so looks like u...i was like kept looking at her for don't know how many sec...she really looks like u...when will you be back? or shall we meet@ Aus if possible...imaging how great it will be.

kinda mess up...like so many things need to be done...
guess year 2006's new year has no meaning for me...but nvm...i will call you all.

summary

Summary from last Friday Till Today...

Last Friday Lq bday,had dinner@ Swensens...the chicken baked rice is really nice.yummy~but the ice cream there is not as nice as what i expected.and lq kept rejecting the second pair of ear ring we gave her...so bad rite...ok but good that finally accepted it...otherwise i want to da ren liao...but too bad missed meh's performance...nvm there's always a next time ya?

[try to act cool...but... like not really cool eh?lol]

[not my ice cream,mine is just banana split...ahha]

[oh ya...and don't order this...will regret one...haha]

then...
these few days fill with projectz and tests...kinda moody days...

then...
this Wed go xz hse had dinner...long time nv see her,cw and lion liao eh...nice hommie mummy food~arh taste nice man...the pork rib...the mushroom...the fish...omg...nice!i like to go friend's house have my meal...it's warm and nice~then play mahjong...mini size mahjong...nv see b4...hmmm...suddenly quite miss my mum.really a great different between HOME and HOUSE.

xz kept asking me if i m very tired...coz my face shows it...at first i didnt realise i m really that lack of sleep...until today...i finally so scared of myself...my temper is horrible today! firstly there's this stupid hao lian guy came in tok abt the lecture time slot...but walao...the way he said and his attitude is totally sux...command and scold us like that.what a shit. he say all those shit in english,but when my class pple go find him and tok to him again...this time he suddenly change to full chinese...nvm...shld not say more abt him...wanna puke.werid guys keep appearing and increasing nowadays.ok and during the stats lesson...duno why i dun find any of the jokes funny...or mayb even feel irritated?then...come to the worst part...i even shout at "you"...ok finally i tink i m back to normal during management lecture and i apologize to "you"...arh sorry if any of you suffer from my serious mood swings these days...i don't realise too...cant control...i tink i better change my body clock...something is just not right...this is not me...i never...or nearly never shout at my friends before~and i used to smile alot...control me please...but i wonder how to change the body clock...it seems not easy...and i think i need to learn more about when should joke and when should not...it will cause misunderstood u know...

erm...and again...Sorry...

plan it well

should have some plans now? it's been so messy since school startz like that...and now can arrange the modules frm most favourite to least already...i guess...

frm most to least:
-->management
-->econs
-->DCN(1604)
-->Jap and stats (both headache)
-->all the Java ( super lost man)

but no choice...work hard for it...hopefully won't slack so much...

Project: java (stock checking system); stats project; management project(interview a manager)

upcoming tests:
week6: jap ica; java written test (topic 3 and 4); DCN(chap 1 to 3 )
week7: Management Ica( chap 1 to 5); Econs Ica(chap 1 to 4 ); jap reading test

each week shall...:
--just work for a day or two;
--don't go out too often...go a day or two(try to control...during the test and project period);
--drum lesson once a week;
--la kopi on thurs after night class haha...(sometimes) ;
--if possible,do some exercise, jian fei...

and shall...
gossip lesser...be more attentive during lessons...do tutorials...lesser mood swing and bad tempered...and forget abt the cca first...


hopefully can follow this...be more motivated pls...

alone

Arghhh...i don't even know how to express what's wrong with me...there's too much stuff screwed up together...but i really don't know how to say...i rather keep quiet...why like that...maybe imaging when your parentz are not here with you...your granny who used to be with you not here ...some of your friends are not here too...then...u gotta face all those shit...maybe that's the feeling...further more...those irritating people keep appearing in front of you or disturbing you...acting like a childish kid...what is this man...

should heck care them...yup heck.
so far what i have learnt? arhg...projectz...must contribute...but i don't know how to express well?like so weak in teamwork? ............beta stop thinking to0 much?...it doesn't help.

sickening

Can't you just stop telling me all those stuff? can't you just share a thought for me? but i doubt u can be such a caring person. u are happy...but can't you feel i m down? whatever.today i m not there...i nv show how disappointed i m...coz i also don't know i really feel so sad until today.i underestimate it.

there are obstacles which stop u frm following ur dream...such as people.sometimes when u can't mix well with other pple...it can stop u frm continuing ur interest.mayb i m too care about it.

i want to avoid u. from now on...

volunteer

tired.

Summary for today:
morning go sch to help out for the old folk home activity.nice experience.play games and serve them food etc.my table got two uncles quite impress me.one of them seems can't talk but he looks quite active...another one...erm...keep toking to me...abit -ve...and he seems not so interested in the event.but overall quite all rite.meaninful day.

tired.

then go home rest awhile.
then went out.
then went for ramen ten meeting...
then slack awhile.
then wait for bus for an hour but the bus didnt come.take taxi home.
then reach home...1am plus already.
tmr work full day some more...nv touch my notes and tutorials.oppz

nice friday again

YoZ Yupz...a nice Friday again...can say now Friday is really my favourite day already.yea~

today is the 4th drum lesson i had with peter...also can say its the last lesson in November...which means time to pay liao ahha...broke man...ok and so far so good...continue practising my roll...stroke and try to play some songz...mainly concentrate on the song "just the girl" by click five.keep it on!

then meet ky at shaw there.she is going to be on holiday...after her torturing jc1 life as she said.we walk here walk there...but like never see anything...coz most of the time we are chatting...chat quite alot of stuff...and agree that guys nowadays really can't make it...most of them don't know what is "gentleman" and so on...should hack care them.irritating.and...some gals also quite irritating...ya and she said her sch got quite a number of this kind's pple.but everywhere will have rite...nyp?ahha...

last time i will feel that the more friends u make the better.but now...maybe grow older le...suddenly feel that the most important is to keep your true lovable friends...what for to have lotz friends but all can't last long? so now...long as can keep those few...i m satisfied.but of coz...i wont reject to make new friends...but...kan yuan fen bah...

mummy called me today...yea we all know that grandma will be better if she continue to stay there...this aunt here only care about who to take care of her baobei daughter...selfish! sometimes just can't stand you man.

harry potter and the goblet of fire

Today watch harry potter and the goblet of fire @Lido...so many new characters~nice show!and abit scary too...exciting episode.

[Cedric why you died...sad arh...]

very tired...eyes almost closed...lastly...don't easily break your promise...

bad luck go away!!

ok...life always has Ups and Downs.that's life.
erm ... few days ago i was kinda joking to say that:i m so suay...but now...it seems to becum real...
ok...although all seems like only small issues...but when all add up together...i feel so fed up~

ok...my frenz ard me keep playing fools with me...they have no bad intension i know...i mean...just play for fun...nth wrong...i can take these jokes...but not when i have a sucky mood...ya i have a sucky mood i guess...easier to get irritated like that...i don't know why...ok...but jokes are just jokes...it's all right...

and then...found out that my favourite black pantz gone missing...i mean...when i lost sth i used to have or wear...i will becum very frustrated~my bad attitude...i just feel so uncomfortable...my favourite pantz...shit man.

and now ...i can apply one econs concept.opportunity cost. i enjoy my one month holiday...and then...i nv go dance for a month.and then...i don't know most of the steps...and then they gonna perform nx wed...and then josh said i miss up alot and told me that he don't think i m ready to get on the stage nx wed yet...so...i miss this performance.true la...only left few days ...i understand...but it's like when u are mentally ready to do sth...but suddenly u can not do it...the feeling it's not good.just like cold water suddenly splash on u.ok he said december got some performances ahead.let's see how.

all seems like just small issues...but it's just not good.bad luck? pls ..go away...!and so far...i duno what i have learnt during java lesson at all...so lost...so fed up...and tonite finally call my grandma...she can hear that i kinda sianz like dat...so alone...but good la she stay there beta...at least my auntz can take care of her...if she come back...then nid to take care of the devil baby again...shit her la. but then... if grandma is here...with me...at least i won't lost my black pantz...and i will have sth to eat for my breadfast or lunch...now...only i can take care of myself ...ok la i shouldn't say this..but really...shit "u" la...lost my pantz...last time lost my socks i already nv say anitink...then cook those sucky food.just suck.ok i m sorry to say that.sometimes u have ur difficulties too...

arh wateva...i m siao...wat's coming up next...wateva...wat test wat project...wat wat wat wat wat!!!!

ok day

Today was quite alright...quite energetic...then the management lesson quite nice also...think this module quite ok so far...in the future then don't know already...hopez will feel the same...

struggle for some time to decide whether to go for the dance prac...the feeling is kinda bad...but,ok...and finally went there...it was much better than what i think...at least for today is quite all right...hmmm...the stepz change quite alot...today is already 15th nov and the performance is going to b on the 30th nov...15 days left and i need to catch up all the new stuff? i think it's gonna be tough if i m determined to participate...but i think i will continue...at least for this performance...after...then think abt it again in the future ba...

ok and josh's expression is really...erm...ya...interesting...or izit abit over?No Comments...
jiayou~! don't give up...study...drum...and dance!
hope grandma get well soon...bless her please...
ps:how to rmb all those jap stuffz man...tough...arh...

Can't take my eyes off this~~pic

pass it

pray hard...

come on...

let me...


PASS!!! PASS!!! I WANT TO PASS!!!at least PASS OK!!!

sunday

well...like everyday not at home this whole week...kinda tired...and today is last day of holiday already...

yesterday was asia beat's semi final...but didn't watch much...slacking ard with meh...feel quite relaxing coz u don't have to think of anitink...but then once school startz...i guess fan nao will come again...

erm....ya...when others sayz "so u are a drummer?" i can't answer "YES" yet...coz my skill ain't good yet...hope will improve soon...and nx time can call myself a Drummer... :)

now...really don't know how the cca goes on already...like never go for a month...hmmm wondering how...

lastly...don't judge a person by his look.

er...there is sth wrong with my tagboard...can't tag...sianz...

homesick

had a great night last night...4am plus then reach home...first time ever that so late then reached home.spent my time with all the old time buddies...great night.Now.leave and back again. homesick,seriously...so...don't feel like going out or talk to anyone yet...besides working,juz feel like staying at home.mayb bcoz of the homesick.i need time to get back to normal again.and i have to.miss them all...

go back alone

[i love this pic...taken during my flight...wohoo...nice cloud]

haiz...again...i flight back alone...grandma need to stay back... 'cause she's not feeling well...maybe only can see her at least few months later...or even longer? no idea.

luckily results are quite all right...thx GOD...


[ i like korea]

home sweet home

Home...sweet home...too bad it's just a less-than-a-month stay...haiz...
come back...leave...come back...leave...always like that...isn't it sad...really don't like this feeling...li li he he...haiz...i can't really take it...but then...no choice...this is my way...i have to accept it...live strong...no turning back...juz cherish the time ok...
things have changed...ya sure one...meet many old friends...glad that still can get along well with them...feels good! hope can keep in touch>>>FOREVER...i really like the feeling when seeing old frens...though the time is short...i miss my family too...and 7th oct one of my relative get married...sweet =)

i shall enjoy my holiday now...time really passes fast...must work harder to achieve my goal...endure! must b strong ...must b strong!!

what's wrong with the blog~!!

arh what's wrong with blogspot now?! i can't go to my template page...then now the "create post" page also siao siao one...wah sian...hope it's not virus or something...

ok...yesterday finally watched my long waited movie "CorpseBride" with meh and anna...the corpsebride quite ke lian...wanna go home later one...but then...grandma not feeling well...so can not TOO late...haiz...i enjoy the night. btw...i did learn some drum rhythms frm alice...thx ya.

can u imaging my 3-yr-old-cousin,gal somemore... super "strong"...keep pushing my grandma...then my grandma fell down sia...walao...at that moment...i so dislike her...kids can be cute...can be so irritating~! but then today...i bring her,my cousin to thomson plaza shopping sia...wat a joke...this time..then i feel that she's quite cute lar...how ironic...

ok and monday...which is today...abt 8am me will b on the airplane le...hmmm...take care pple...haha...and ya,someone sayz that aft i come back go eat steamboat ya? and vanness...DDR ok?and sk...update with me abt the dance k...oh ya..and harry potter coming soon...17th nov?