Saturday, April 29, 2006

emo night

thurs lesson starts at 8am,never slp well the night b4 also...ya it's hard to wait all the way to 6.30pm for the kicking yea...so don't want keep forcing u also le...hope nx week can make it? well...but...nx week got e-com presentation plus proposal...haix...see how bah...and guys...if nth suddenly pops up...hopefully nx friday we can go kbox as planned...mayb the 2 to 7 pm one...

today another tired day...lesson at 8am also...it really kills me to wake up sooooo early...but what to do...



after school at first want go home rest b4 working one...but in the end change plan then pull sw and shirley go grassroot...had my 2nd time choc fondue there...this time the serving is smaller...erm...quite ok bah...

then working...at first still can be alert and energetic...but i guess ard 8 plus...my eyes really shut me down...plus the seafood fried rice mix with the fondue...don't really feel well...feel so dizzy...when they ask me if i m ok...ya again guess is coz they see my face like tired like that...i just smile lor...or ans YA i m ok...because i don't want to say i am not ok to burden them...and i am trying to get back to normal...so can don't keep asking me...i don't know how to express to others that i am not ok anyway...i am trying to be ok okay...and i will be okay...point out my mistake and ask me wake up if u think i am getting worse ok...but i can say i never slack today lor...so why...misunderstanding is so irritating! guess try to avoid work on fri...i tink i really can't stand it when wake up very early...go school...then work...affects myself...affects other...i don't want.

it's quite sadden really.so near yet so far.the distance like getting further? i feel happy to see u all after some time...but surprisingly...i rather keep quiet when i see u all...maybe is becoz at the working environment...or...complicated feeling...maybe think too much lor...but it's not the same le for sure...wonder when will have kbox like last time...wonder when will la kopi like last time...wonder when will see u all lame together like last time...wonder when will have nice chats like last time...wonder...

okay...but nth i can do...now working...ya maybe just like what winston said...i m like a zombie walking here and there...ahha...coz i feel aimless...maybe...hide in a shell...maybe is a better way

enought of saying...still...will try to keep my smile =)


Wednesday, April 26, 2006

food


tried this chocolate Fondue.expected whole piece of strawberry instead of slice ones...haha...What's next?Yummy~~

i think to travel around the world and to taste all different types of food are the most happiest dreams in our lives...

but now...not leisure time already...haix.
Mother's Day is coming...time to make a card soon.Grandma will be back soon,will treat her soon as well...

i will not agree with these words..."as long as to see the one u like is happy with the one he/she like...u will feel happy too." really? how to feel happy if u can't be with the one u like...

Saturday, April 22, 2006

phew

decided to keep the previous post to myself...once got write it out feel better le...shall update some nicer stuff here...smile =)

project time is coming again soon...stress are expected...but hope we can overcome it and work together =)

nx wed is photography club orientation, thurs is bei quan dao trial, fri sat work, sun drum...whee...

got visit sher's doggie hershey...ultra active? lol haha...hmmm and want to play with kenny asap~~

hmmm but still...want to say that...i don't smile doesn't means anything! i m trying to be more serious during work only...okay.

Monday, April 10, 2006

on

some pple very on one...while some are not so...sometimes u feel excited to plan sth...sometimes it just makes u so frustrated. haha...whatever...

some pple...u thought u already know them quite well,but maybe is not...sometimes...u feel u are close to some pple...but mayb they don't feel this way. watever la... izit bcoz school reopen soon...? so messy ...sian la.

nvm.it will be fine i guess?

up comings:
monday: 12 meet @fe. take the rt test. then shopping.
tues:change to kbox @cine meet @ 10.30
thurs:buy books? then work full
friday:seoul garden. meet @1pm. confirm plus chop.
sat:shhhh

haix the past weeks i have failed to arrange my timing...super super paiseh la keep changing the schedule...i rather they scold me than to say nvm to me...won't do that again.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

is this me?

firstly Happy Birthday to meh!

after having lunch plus tea break with king@ crystal jade,i rush home and going out meet anna and meh at far east...meh's fren edward also there...and he looks abit matured compare to last time? do u feel happy today? i hope u all did..r u drinking the breezer now? haha...sorry coz i really not sure if i got brings u joy today...sorry...i owe u a piece of cake ok peiyu...nx time after ur exam...jio u go eat cake ok? sorry today i actually wanna stay overnite but my cash can't withdraw frm the atm yet...shit... haix i really treasure the time being with u all really... all the friends out there i really miss u all at this moment.

i don't know what's wrong with me but i just suddenly so dislike the present me...it's like so duno wat...fake? unfriendly? just very negetive...shit...i m like abit losing myself? where the hell m i? shit.

and suddenly i feel abit sick with working. or tired? i tired to hear all the things about working...but who ask me like to buy this buy that and i still gonna pay the drum fee by self...so i gotta continue...but i think...mayb far east is worsen...mayb? haix...no complaine la...u want to have money to spend? then u gotta work what.

to my sec school friends...plus some srjc ones...hey i really miss u all really...haix...i hope things won't change that much...and i hope we will meet each other soon.and meh...i just don't know why but really hope today didnt make u bored ok.

rt pple...i really cherish the time being with u all...maybe when school starts things will not be the same anymore...will not have that much time to see u all...haix...but...haix...hope won't have big changes...but...mayb working just makes some pple change...esp those with big ambitioins?

school gonna reopen again soon...sianz...hope our class can continue have funs together...chiong arh...and wondering abt the cca...

haix but still...where am i? is this the real me?

Friday, April 07, 2006

shopaholic


finally ysd got to talk to meh on phone nia...update lotz news to me...haha...saturday see how's ur plan lar...

shopping today...or mayb shld say window shopping...thought i got nth want to buy already...but then...human like me is just so greedy...saw alot of stuff that wanna buy...hmmm...like that how to save money? sounds so impossible...haix. hmmm and duno why today very lady... and quite interested in the lady stuff...izit bcos i m with the ladylike piggie? haha... and now we got silver nails...ahha...

realise now so many shops sell the lace material clothes...new trend ya...some quite nice...gothic eh?

hmmm shoppinglist___ top,shorts,shoe,skirt,personal stuff... all like over 30 sth...hmmm slowly slowly...

tmr take pay day...after work go king house...think watch "wishing stairs"...scared but want to watch...hmmm...like like dun want to believe this stuff also cannot? like got so many real stories...

mei nan zi hairstyle really nice... now channel u got jimmy lim...bring back childhood memories?

but...why now suddenly feel so empty and aimless? shit.

Monday, April 03, 2006

past event

arranged my photos and neos,bring me back some memories...haix...how i wish i could turn back time sometimes. and all of a sudden...i realise i like have no feeling for anyone at the moment...haha...like no motivation? but it's ok,fine with me...still have fun with friends...the one? believe will come one day...shun qi zi ran =) hopefully can continue being cheerful...

--=--=--= --=--=--=--=--=--=--= THE PAST --=--=--=--=--=--=--=--=--=--=--=--=--

last monday nite to wed morning...go ramen ten chalet...at first feel abit uncomfortable when being with some unknown crowds...but slowly getting better and had fun playing games and being at the beach.meanwhile also watched "2 become 1"...not becos intereseted in the story but miriam yeuang and ren xian qi who are acting in the movie...haha... wonder why the swimming pool there is not allowed to use...and the chalet ended by visiting the red house...details at mel's blog so lazy to write liao.


last friday...opps i m late for the drum lesson...like again...really paiseh nia...prac the song "something abt you" by five for fighting...abit hard...but learn some new rhythms...quite nice.

after that go cafe cartel@ PS...meet them to celebrate elaine's bday...caramel there is not as nice as coffee bean one...haha...then walk around,go arcade...both the ps one and the mrt there one...didn't know there is an arcade at mrt there...interesting...mainly play the basketball game...woohoo...got free games =p then also go eat fish&co...mainly eat and play that day muahaha...have fun...the details...i know they know can liao =p hahaha...(die die must use this sentense)

eh...don't think want eat cafe cartel le...like not very nice...fish&co still nice la haha...food brings me joy~

(are u sure this one is nice??!)



yesterday,sunday,was suppose to meet @yck at 830 but i told them i really cannot wake up...in the end...tink reach east coast slightly earlier than 12 sth...? hmmm ya feel kinda weird...like nth to talk to him...when kat return her bike and chatting with arcoz...i told them i go cycly myself, i mean it...i want cycle alone...but then he still follow me...scared i lost my way back but sorry...i really want alone ok...by then i can feel abit relax...haix.

then go ramen ten have dinner...by then i feel better...i tink i choose the right place to have dinner...somewhere i familiar with and with them ard.phew. arh really don't know nia...ask me if want go nx sunday again... i was like don't want to put myself into this kind of situation again...but if i reject...like don't know what...but mayb...once feeling gone...hard to b normal fren again...or mayb only apply to me? haix...dont know dont know.