Tuesday, December 26, 2006
spent christmas night till boxing day afternoon with class peeps, thou in between got feel like nth to do and sleepy...but after all, had fun~ =p and i wonder why i vomit so many times also...juz drank a cup of vodka+sprite... too full or jiu liang nt gd? ahha...
it's always nice to read hand-written cards...feel the warmth, which can't be replaced by sms and emails... looking forward on tmr,thurs, and maybe friday as well... when school reopen, torturing days will start again...hope can get over it...peace peace...
year2007 is coming liao...so fast...suddenly wish the time can stop or don't pass so fast...i will miss alot of things that had happend...
nice to be in class dbi0506 actually.
Sunday, November 19, 2006
after her A-level, she should feel happy isn't it? i keep saying i am so envy lor...it's like...freedom days are ahead man...not like me...still struggling... but instead, she don't feel that way, many problems in her mind. one of the main inciddent made her feel this way...
" u treat this person as ur best friend, however, that person might not treat u the same way, she may just treat u as one of her normal friends only."
i got this thought b4 as well, and when she said this, it makes me wonder again...
yes, will they feel the same way like i do? i have not much confidence suddenly.
i admit my temper is not really good.i try to mind my words, but why sometimes they just never know and realise how hurtful their words are? i really wanna shoot back but at that moment i just like lack of words. u shoot me do not means i must do the same ya?
but female is xiao qi, forgive not forget.
recently really wonder what kind of life is this? school is just not that good.
i need a break. haix.
should things better to keep in heart? or pour it out? i really haf no idea already. maybe just don't think about it first.
so many school works nid to do like that...but like nth is done?
some people trying to say some words that made it sound like they are caring, nice and kind. but when things really happen, they might just watch u die, or shoot u behind. sick isnt't it?
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
happy bday for both "piggie" and "da qiu".
had fun yesterday. simply likes food. and nowadays like to observe the design of the cakes. thurs also bought a cake for grandma.
just now watch a show called " final fu" , mtv channel.not bad, got more motivation to learn k.b better.
nowadays got lots injuries thu is just minor ones, from k.b and frisbee training. but had fun too.
wed frisbee tournament...try my best. aim? don't get the bottom 3~ come on man~
sat is going to haf fun~woohoo...eat prata then rollerblade. if got the money think will consider get a pair, coz the rollerblade shoe at ecp is soooo smelly........ also....nowadays like to eat at prata places, eat prata and drink milo dinosaur~~
nice food just make ur day.
aniway. juz wish to haf peace.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
thurs treat my family jack's place, coz quite satisfied with my income this month =). will never order set meal from there, not that nice...but the appetizer not bad,and ice/cream etc... then get the member card and borrow some books from library again.
at night go explore chinatown and little india with winnie. can't find my smelly tofu still, and we enjoyed fooling ard at little india...but one irritating thing is that the bangalas like keep looking at you,wonder what's their problem...
yesterday,hmpt my 'aunt' made me so pain, but plan to go cycling le...so don't wanna spoilt the plan, then i just went ahead. after eat the pills from kat. guess not so pain liao. then cycle 2 hr just for $6 bucks,quite satisfied. the skating beginner' corner is quite interesting, u will see some pros there, and pple falling down of coz...ahha...then saw quan yi feng again...plus 2 superhosts. then at night went for art lesson. tiring day...
sun either go skating or go vivo city,last day b4 school reopen...hmmm so fast...don't want...
monday need wear fully black for k.b...reminded me that my oni nice black pant was lost...haix.
Saturday, September 30, 2006
shall not think too much. when u work u wanna quit,when u going to quit u wanna stay. how ironic life is.
seldom wake up as early as today sia. and i think i don't like water color, wonder what i were drawing yesterday.
sometimes when i say sorry,doesn't mean that i agree that was my fault, maybe i simple just want to make the atmosphere better. get it.
nice songs make ur day.
Saturday, September 16, 2006
wed slp till 6pm sth, went for tuition, then mos.
-->you don't drink so much leh...
thurs went fortunate restaurant@ toapayoh. had dim sums for xia wu cha...nice!
-->family family family!
fri today water painting for lesson.
nervous to view result...arhhh...coz feel that did not do well...hmpt nvm...wat's done is done.
will join kick boxing when school reopen with anna. whee.
Monday, September 11, 2006
then ting hui is in singapore...woohoo...she finish her A and she got into cambridge uni! that's so great. what make me more envy is that she got to travel to italy,scotland and some places~ like so wonderful! italy...a place that i wanted to go...feel that she's quite enjoying life...i think live in western country is free and nice...abit motivated to work harder for my goal~!
had lunch with her and king at aji tei, my favourite unagi and sashimi bento...yum yum but not that full...but i was late again...and we all need to leave early like ard 2 plus to 3 sth, coz king need study for her maths exam tmr, me nid go for tuition and th meet her sis...hopefully tmr will see her again.
was like at least 1 year or more then can see her once, maybe i dun talk as much as b4, but inside my heart, i am really really happy...haix why always like that one, those people that i like and want to meet, must wait at least a year then can meet once....it's really really really a torture to me.....haix....feel very empty when everytime apart with them,both my family and friends.
however in our life, some pple we might not want to see them, but we need to see them very often. isn't it a torture as well. opps.
then...eh late for tuition, late for ramen ten. like a chain...late for one thing...then resulted late for everything.
Friday, September 08, 2006
unknown future like u can't even know where u will settle down.
messy until u dun even wanna go clear ur mind to think about it. there' ll nv be an answer for it.
well but at least, i survived?
finish poly maybe the condition will be better, sometimes really hope time can pass abit faster.
yea i know i keep complaining abt it no use at all. so okay mum, i choose to live strong no matter what.
pple only see my smile, do they really understant what's behind a smile?
all i ask for is a simple and happy home. i don't wanna blame u anything already cause i know it will only hurt you. i know u live not easy as well. let's work hard together even we are physically apart.
okay enough of emo shit.
so envy sia anna got to meet westlife in person! that is like a dream comes true man!! she got to tok to them and get their signature omg~ makes me so regret that time nv go for bsb concert...at least can breath under the same place........so wanna blame myself! haix..coz sometimes when u miss a chance, u won't know when it will come again...maybe never.
she is so high now that wanna meet up. maybe later? really xian mu lehx...if i got to see bsb in real life i tink i also dun wanna slp already................................................
tmr should be a nice day too. that's all.
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
saw kwon sang woo at imm...crowed like mad...he is so charming!!
did some shoping...buy quite a number of things...and googles of couse...shld try do more sports during holiday.
swimming tmr...eh no i mean later...today...
that day had a big quarrel with mum...shout to the phone till like all the passer-by look at me? who cares, can't control. but luckily,now okay liao.
had a over night chatting time too...whee know some new stuff again.
liling reset her tamagotchi again and she was surprised that mine now is 3rd generation liao...eh but really so hard to feed meh? -_-??
recently open a chinese blog at wretch...quite a simple and nice website...so abit lazy to update here liao.
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
hmmm stress up when teach harrison maths...a pri5 boy who don't understand how to calculate 1.5 X 1000...really stress...how to find a best way? wondering...
okay.erm last saturday after watching the france firework go kbox with rt peeps. the one sing to nx day morning 6am one. with winnie,liling,ning,mel,jw,derrick,fly,terrence and tommy.
skip the detail. they gave me this ice cream cake. i love cake! and sa bo around lolx...touched really...but paiseh also...but maybe bcoz it's nt the exact day liao so feeling abit weird haha...but thx.
this time don't feel sleepy throughout the whole session until everything's end.whee...
realise actually many gals like to play tamagotchi still...some boys too...get one lehx...play with ur fren u will see something interesting...lolx.
Friday, August 11, 2006
the italy firework...but this time my view kana blocked...so this is my best shot already...
kinda like my this semi-formal =) tues morning take pay. then finished the ecpj presentation.
watched lake house at PS... the ending is super nice...touched...
then meet lq they all...very on sia haha...thx for spending the first min with me. touched =) loves it.
sand house made by srjc?
sweet secret's tiramisu...not bad...but marianne seems doesn't like it?
and thx for spending the last min with me =)
when ji asked what is my wish...abit sad for the moment...coz the wish will be family reunion soon...i am waiting for the day...haix.. and dat's why i don't like to talk much about my past background. just know the present me is enough i guess...i don't want to think too much...
TO MY FRIENDS:
thanks for all the wishes...made my day...how i wish i can bump into u all everyday haha...but ya impossible...but thx...a sms will do...we missed each other for that moment at least.
the bag is nice and my tamagotchi 1st generation is named " kiki"...what a act cute name haha...
and finally i think i realise sth...i appears to be cheerful but i think indeed...i am not so...so it's like kinda not match? so that's why feel weird? i don't know.
too emotional hurts.
Monday, August 07, 2006
now the problem is ...i think i can't stand myself man. i don't like the present me! especially when looking back...the " present" one is like so don't know how to say...no way...wake up wake up...see and think things in a more simple way please. hold on!
back back back. come back!
i very mean one...if it's impossible...i rather he is a gay. at least...won't be that sad...hmmmm....crap.
okay maybe this sounds abit siao siao to some pple...but since my house is not far from school...plus i wanna jian fei...i am tinking if i should buy a bicycle...and of coz..if i buy...i won't cicycle to school everyday...lolx...i have been thinking this for long liao...but to take in action...courage and money is needed...hmm...holiday see how...also, cycle to some place near also not bad? but...another thing...where to park it...
Saturday, August 05, 2006
always reluctant to go nafa punctually...always like late for lesson but manage to finish the drawing of the day...hmm...slowly find back some confidence in drawing... =)
now got one more tuition kid..p5 boy chinese and maths...name harrison,my aunt's colleague's son...come from a broken family...so charge her at a quite low price...but now i found the joy of teaching...i hope i won't waste my student's parent's money...i really hope i can help them improve. that's my responsibility... jia you jia you... but this boy quite naugty sia...first day joke with me liao...somemore talk with his mum like nearly an hour for my first lesson...i wanna vomit blood liao coz i didn't expect boys are so hard to teach..prefer gals sia...but then today...grandma told me this boy told his mum that he likes me...haha...okay...since he likes me...okay i shall not give up so easilly even though i feel dat he is so naughty haha~
also...after a very long time...browse thru some frenster...saw some old photos...bring back some memories...haix...those were the days...miss it...but life got to move on...
the dark period is over...i feel that i m being abit harsh and bad temper during those dark days...why school must torture students in this way? haix...now it's gonna over~~~ i am back...back to the normal me hopefully... yea!
lastly.i wanna say that. please don't misinterprete my words. if u know me, u should also know that i am not that type of person who like to say those words which are suan and hurtful...cause i myself also don't like it...i will control my grip...but if some bad words really come out from my mouth, then i guess i have reach my limits.
Monday, July 24, 2006
Examination Timetable - Academic Year 2006/2007 Semester 1
12:30PM - 02:30PM
G.221 (Z2) 103
08:30AM - 10:30AM
IP TECHNOLOGY AND NETWORKING
12:30PM - 02:30PM
DATABASE MANAGEMENT SYSTEMS
08:30AM - 10:30AM
BUSINESS ENVIRONMENT (WK 19/20)
12:30PM - 02:00PM
PRINCIPLES OF FINANCIAL MANAGEMENT (WK 19/20)
Legend for Venue :
Sports Hall (Zone 1)
Block G, Level 2 [Sports Hall (Z1)]
Sports Hall (Zone 2)
Block G, Level 2 [Sports Hall (Z2)]
Sports Hall (Zone 3)
Block G, Level 2 [Sports Hall (Z3)]
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
sometimes only realise i've talking non-sense after my words have spoken out...hmm...what to do? feel paiseh and keep quiet maybe.
and if u feel that i've say some weird words to u? before trying to blame me, please check urself first.
pple got emotions...pple are easily being irritated. nowadays...for me,i think, if u feel that u're being irritated, try to ignore, turn away, keep quiet. and forget it. best for both parties. when u feel unhappy, u got to adjust it urself. find ur own way to be happy.
don't let all the projects studies occupied all ur times, spare some time for urself ,do something u like, and spend some time to do some meaningful events.
u shld not feel sad easily,even u feel so, u shld get rid of this feeling as soon as possible to move on. think about it, u got a healthy body, u got pple who love u, u got food,u can listen to so many types of music, u can join activities,u can buy the things u want...think about those pple who live in the 3rd country...u don't have the right to complaint that life is sux.
i think teaching is a nice job...but then feel paiseh when can't solve the question. the student not bad too...quite nice to chat with. and this is one conversation i find it kinda...eh...interesting?
she:"teacher, ur horoscope izit libra?"
she:"nah...i thought u libra...cause i got many frens who are libra and they are short."
me:"lolx izit, for me i think libra usually good looking."
she agree:" yea i also think so...so i though u are libra. then wat horoscope are u?"
me:" leo, how u find it then? i don't really like it coz i think it's abit fierce...coz lion mahx."
she:" har u leo arh? i thought usually leo is quite serious one."
conclusion. she think libra pple is short and good looking and leo pple is serious.
but she don't find me serious...coz i keep joke with her and chit chat maybe.
and she is libra as well.
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Monday, July 10, 2006
around 4am something like suddenly woke up and catch the last part of the match.pple only rmb the winner...so what if get the 2nd? French cried...
forget since when i support italy already...like some years already...first attracted by totti if not wrong. wonder why world cup will make us feel so high and low sometimes...haha...
now it comes to and end.somehow abit not used to it...used to spend some night to watch it.hmmm...and some players...might not able to see them again...and for zidane...even more sad that he ended with a red card...
abit unfair during the matches...well but maybe life is like that...an unfair world?
but after all...still happy that italy wins. makes this monday a good day somehow.
Monday, July 03, 2006
there's too much to catch up. feel mess up again.haix.
-wed voice out
-sat maybe ecp
-tcpip test next week
-next week check ecpj
-17th bic com proj
-24th biz environment proj
don't know why sometimes feel sad when looking at grandma. she's like in the house everyday. because of her legs so she didn't even go downstairs to have a tea or something. i never tell her how i feel at all, i just don't know how to show my care. haix... i know i should spend some hours with her...at least have a small breakfast downstair...
mum dad grandmas grandpa i miss u...
friends... i don't know how to express that actually i did enjoy spending time with u. for those who i did not see for some time, i never show actually i did miss u all and hope that if u free to have a chat or go out sth...find me anytime.
maybe i don't talk as much sometimes, maybe i think this is a better way to keep myself from getting hurt, by talk lesser. even if i keep quiet.i do care. and when u talk to me, i am willing to listen and response.
and we need to know when is the time to stop the jokes.
still waiting for the true freedom...
Sunday, July 02, 2006
watch both GER vs ARG and ENG vs POR match...penalty to decide who make it to the semi-final... penalty...like so depends on luck...the winner side : overjoyed. the other side: sad...cry. how cruel...but no choice.in a game,there's winner and loser...
can feel the stress when watching a live soccer match...don't know since when so nervous and abit stressful when watching soccer...too unpredictable. a soccer match is not just simply a match...
italy gonna vs germany...hmmm i guess Germany will make it to final but of coz hope will be italy...hope they got the luck...totti goal! wanna see the final which is
too bad the nafa class got no shuai ge...no i shld say it's all za bo haha...lolx which is good also...can be more concentrate.
u know he is not what u want...u know the feeling for him is not that type...is just simply like as a friend...u somehow feel abit happy when see him...but sometimes u just get irritated when talk to him...he is not yours but somehow u don't want other gals to get close to him...but after all...u just like him as a friend.keep a distance...maybe is better. maybe sometimes, you just don't have to know him too well...
Friday, June 30, 2006
yea being punctual acutally is quite important...if one always being late...he/she may lost the trust from his/her friends...
oh no...no one likes to wait...and no one likes the people who being late...it reflects a person's sense of responsibility and others...
hmmm...guitly to be late but got this bad habit...oh no...to become a more responsible person...i shall not be late!!! arhhh...
Monday, June 26, 2006
like so long didn't have this feeling already. i am panic because of ica marks?! biz com...no jokes...no exam...didn't do well then no chances already...arhh...if u want to furthur ur study...every sem's gpa is counted for poly...really panic...worried...still like so slacking...anxious.
and miss the holiday also...wonder when can see them...guess not so soon...hmmm
heart is dead over some things...haix.
Sunday, June 25, 2006
mum and i got this decision. no matter what i need to work here for at least 2 years due to the contract with school...so no choice. work b4 continue my further study. i accept it. and i work for it. i will not give up the hope to go aus. i got no choice anyway.
finally told mum that i m giving tuition. she just accepted it naturally...haha so now no more secrets. she's still as open minded.glad. she's the best.
also...told her some of my feelings...about the dark side i saw in the society. she said maybe we need to accept and adapt it. 适者生存. and some pple just like to be bossy around.i asked:" so must i also have to become this kind of people then can live?" can't rmb what she answered,but if i have to become like that, i will never like myself. think about it.so sick.
altough i've been working there for like 1 and a half year. but i am glad that i nv talk to them with a bossy tone and order pple here and there...pple got eyes,pple can see...and i won't pick on them after the mistakes have been made. especially when it's just careless mistake.for what sia~add more fuss izit?sometimes i wonder if this is good? coz if u don't bossy ard...in other words...means pple will bossy u ard.
OPEN UR EYES. SEE CLEARLY B4 U SCOLD.
i won't chit chat when is busy...or maybe i wiping things during chit chat...can u see?if i see sth haven't been clear up...u tink i will act like didn't see? so if i didn't see it...and i see another customer standing outside need my help, u scold for what? now so many "supervisors" in rt sia...everyone like to order pple...like to bossy ard. well...i try not to bother already but don't cross the line. to protect urself,okay,so work is work,don't ever joke.
maybe u've changed. but i won't deny if i've changed. things happened to me recently force me to have some diff views. kind of lost also.but what to do. haix...
sometimes, somethings i guess i still have the choice...but now school reopen again...i don't have the time to look ard yet.once i found. then i guess i will say bye to the place. ya... bu she de, but i know is not the same anymore.the joy is gone.
there's no right or wrong. coz pple usually think themselves are the right one. maybe it apply to myself as well.so no pt to argue.
cut hair with anna later.
Sunday, June 18, 2006
friday. had some shopping and saw JJ lim at heeren...quite happy...then explore some places in orchard...watch the movie "she's the man"...quite enjoyable. soccer...italy and brazil jiayou~
the night is always attractive yet dangerous...
accidentally...or should say only me is the last to know that we've inside orchard tower...a scary place...shiver...
skip those. here comes the main part. we met car accident...the shockest moment in my life.
2 taxi and 1 car bang together and we were inside one of the taxi...i scream.things comes so sudden that we don't even know what had happened...just knew that all the taxis and cars are disfigure and i MUST THANK GOD THAT WE ONLY HAD MINOR INJURIES...omg i can't imaging that we'll be the victims of the car accident...that's scary! policemen all those came right after that... coz heard that there were some fighting nearby so they already there...i only feel giddy at the moment and meh appears to be calm.but winnie said her head is pain...so she follow the ambulance and we take cab(no choice...impossible to walk there) to find her at general hospital...coz the ambulance not enuff space to let us in. she had her check up there and need to stay there for some hours...so when things seems to be settle down...me and meh went home first...all of us are too tired...when reached home...it's about 7am, saturday... what a long and sleepless night.horrible...
now i feel some pain...not sure but hope it's minor case...i can't believe that all this happen one by one...realise i didn't have a good health these days...fall down badly...flu and now car accident...what happen man...and i can't let mum know anything about it...omg GOD BLESS ME PLEASE! life is really unpredictable...health is really IMPORTANT!
don't know if i've cool down or not...but maybe will have a little phobia of taking cab and i should think about it...i think should not go home too late? i am abit frighten already...grandma said i always frightens her also...made her worry about my safty...i should think about it...
things are too sudden and i think i still need time to cool down...omg now i still feel blur blur...like still in a dream...coz everythings just too sudden...
and got my nafa student card...the card very thick...and the course starts on 30th june...need to manage my time for study work and this course...i feel so messy at the moment.hmm.
watch garfield next week...still haven't got a watch...hope can find a nice white or blue watch.white is always nice and comfortable for me.except white hair. arh i can't believe that the accident happened in the morning and i go to work at night...i want stay at home and rest...today's working like a shit for me...totally in an insecure state coz i am shivering still...and giddy...shit..tmr no replacement too...arh...
Saturday, June 10, 2006
really hope to see my student improve...i feel the responsibility...maybe that's why i feel stress somehow...the stress maybe is given by myself...still not confident enough but i am trying my best... try to find back the old maths books but i realise maybe i've thrown them...hmmm...
now caught in flu as well...weird weather...now shld be hot isn't it?why so cold instead hmmm...
next week packed...tuesday to sunday all planned...awww...and Garfield2 will be out next week...but i think can only watch it week after next... also guess put real less schedule for ramenten bahx.. oh ya i think i saw kero,the ahem colinandkero blog that one...he came ramenten eat...he is our customer too lolx...they all said he looks really gay...but if the one we saw is really kero...i will doubt if he is really gay...work at rt will see different type of pple and customer...so...stay? lolx...
also projects are:
and pray that i can go to business side...for the elective.
last friday saw king...pouring out some fan naos...and motivate each others to move on...no choice...that's life...but wonder how come everytime can't buy things at bugis...orchard is better for me...
thurs met mehx...after some time...shop around at orchard...then go her fren house...a very big house...and there are 3 things really impress me...the 2 dogs,named ringo and shirley haha...big dogs, cute and nice to play with also =) then...his scv...got ALL the channels~i mean ALL sia...wow...lastly...there is a drumset in his toilet...ahha...too bad nx day financail tut at 8am...otherwise...i may follow them go MOS le...
friday not a bad day as well...quite happy for the finance test mark...then at night...yea saw that kero i think so? but i wanna see colin instead...hehe...then after closing...yea...after some time since we last kbox le? go cine kbox...frm 12 till the nx morning 6am sth? first time sia...but all tired i guess...sing sleep sing sleep like that...but happy to go kbox again with them...ramen ten peeps...
then sleep for few hours...went for tution today...back...and sleep for awhile...but still lacking of sleep... last min study make me lack of sleep...play too hard also make me lack of sleep...lolx but i have no complains...
few years didn't wear watch already...now plan to get one...like swatch...colourful and funky...aiming for white or blue color one...save up?
still never tell any of them about the tuition thing...just now wanna tell grandma but i still choose to keep it to myself...hmmm...but when she ask where am i going tmr...i don't know how to answer...
Thursday, June 01, 2006
today is a rushing day for me.rush to bank...then rush to school pay school fee cos today due liaox...then i missed my busstop AGAIN...then rush to ramen ten...then rush eating and put up all the working stuff...maybe tooooo rush liaox...till i vomit in the end lolx...plus that thing first day ahem...in the end i 8 plus punch out..suppose to end at 9pm...and this month i target to work for 40hrs...but now i think i short by 10 mins like that? well....speechless...
then i really realise how important health is. without a good health...hard to do things well...don't have that energy...hmm....feel abit weak...all the injuries havent fully recover...which also means energy level still low...a swollen face makes me so down already...let alone an obvious scar...arh...this still keep hurting me...because i still wonder if mum is fully recover mentally...i scare that from outside she acts ok...but behind...and even though like that...she still must go to work...and yet she still keep asking me to work lesser or if feel not happy...can just don't work...she rather me learn more stuff than work...she rather give me more money if i not enough to spend...and i think she scare i can't take the pressure from giving tution...she quite insist to stop me from doing that...yet i still try it...but...i really wish to have a try...and i got the interest to teach maths and chinese...sorry mum... but then again... MUM IS REALLY GREAT...THEY CAN DO ANYTHING FOR THEIR CHILD...they rather work harder to let their child enjoy more...really wish that in the future...i am able to let her have an enjoyable life.work for it!
hmmm maybe i've change without knowing it...and maybe is not a good one...but is okay...gonna be fine...make it simpler.believe in it.
hmm about ramen ten...think the business is getting better and better...expand liaox...heard got a big outlet at causeway pt and a small one which named shin tokyo at parkway...also they hire lots new staffs...also base on what i feel today...now even amk become more strict liaox...today i anyhow wear the red polo also kana say liaox...alert...no more the old ramen ten liaox...now stronger power le...but weird feeling again...sumhow...still struggling...coz i realise that i like to interact with the customers...hmmm dat's one thing keeps me still working there...i like that...also plus got gan qing there...but some reasons make me really wanna stop working there...also...some friendly faces gone liaox...don't know...i think keep quiet during work is a beta way...later u joke or talk too much kana warn again...also if u give little schedule...they will ask you if u are so busy or say u got time to play no time work? well...that's my freedom right?
and...full timer...yea i know means more responsibility...but remember...don't lose yourself.
nervous...saturday my first time giving tuition...then nx week...3 tests.
Saturday, May 27, 2006
fri no school so planned to go ecp cycling+blading then eat the cake at awfullychocolate.
cycled for 2 hours.and it's quite cheap.$4 for 2 hours. cut it short. while steven and elaine reached ecp...we went to katong mall ate the cake i've kept thinking of..the awfullychocolate cake.cos stella always bring this cake while she's on the taiwan shows.it looks nice. and when i realise sg also have this shop...so eager to eat it...but...not as that super nice as expected bah...
when back to ecp again.decide to take blade.and it's ex lor $6 like for 1hr sth like that only...even worse...i only like blade for half...coz when bladed downslope i fall badly...i kiss the road lor...nearly cried.very pain...thought bend forward will be more steady~~! now still quite painful...bruises all over body...worst thing is my left side the face now is like a pig face...super swollen...arh...so this weekend bobian stay at home rest... as i said...face is a sensitive issue now...coz my mum's face and datz why...the first thing i said when reached home is "don't tell mum". on the way some bad things happen too like sth wrong with the bike and forget to get back elaine's ezlink...
a long and tiring day...nt that bad...will be better if those incidents didn't happen. for me. conclusion is...will not blade again soon till there is a pro with me. hmmm last time used to have one...kept changing my mind for the tuition things...some is lack of confidence and some is don't want to cheat.hmmm.. indecisive person.
now...energy power is still low...zhou wei dou shi shan...guess is the most serious accident for me so far.hmmm not a good feeling.eyes pain also.time to rest again.hmm
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
what can really cheers ur granny up? is to spend more time with them...well today reached home kinda early...5pm sth...it's like...don't know after how long didn't reached home so early already...can see that she felt quite happy...can see...then have dinner together at a normal dinner time...like after so long...realise actually sometimes it's not hard to make someone happy...just that u got to spend more time with them...and care for them. mum i will be strong.so do u. never give up ya.
today nearly can have my first student...a p1 korean kid!!! arh...at first so happy to hear dat lor...korean wor...but too bad...she said they want the tutor at least 25 years old.then got one...at boon keng...i think that's abit too far for me so reject...but anyway...hope they will call me back soon~
Friday, May 19, 2006
i really envy you..."you" who have ur family to be with u happily.
a piece of messy shit. how to pick myself up?
Thursday, May 18, 2006
i know i am talking rubbish but why let this happen to my mum...why why...i beg u give her good health can? her health is already bad enuff now why this kind of incident happen again?how pain...!!! blood omg...if is not very serious she won't cry when told me this...that's why i feel extra super worried coz i m not there...i can't even know how is her injury now and it's head! it's the important part of your body...i hope there are no scars on her head...i know she worried too...there is no one there to take care of her and what can i do now? i can do nth...GOD...please help me this time...i promise i will pray everyday...just please help me look after mummy k plase? bless her get well soon and no scar...a face is impt for a lady...please i beg u i beg u i beg u...
i can't anyhow waste money already...i need to lesser her burden...arh...please guide me what to do my mind is completely blank and i don't know how to face everyone now...wonder if can be happy again till she fully recovery...please bless her she is all alone...help me help me i really don't noe what to do i promise i will pray with all my heart please bless her...i don't know what to do...help me!! mum how i wish i can fly to u there now...i m so worried...gif her the power to be strong please i beg u...what can i do...why why why.
i am scared...truely...
Monday, May 15, 2006
firstly...aunt just help me ask the "zui fu lou"...the chinese restautant...hmm...said they will call me...heard is $6 per hr...also quite near house...once they contact me...i m gonna go there and try...if it suits me...then...erm...
nx step...call the tuition agency...
then...fri if nth's on...will go nafa apply for the part time course there which is called "basic western art"...hope things will go smooth please...yea...art...colors~
next week finance test and duno which IT module quiz i think...jiayou jiayou...and ecpj...jiayou too!
erm...think me and grandma bad for good le bah...still never say sorry to her in real life...but bought the milo and milk powder that she wants...hope she knows what i think...
for work...not sure where the stress comes from...but one of the reason maybe is bcoz...i still can't sure of that feeling and it makes me feel like don't know how...i don't want to continue like this...haix.end.
[devil beside you] sweet show!
nice song: for you i will by teddy geiger.
Thursday, May 11, 2006
havent get out of my messy world...everythings seems so messy still...and i want to blame myself for not brave enough...didn't go for the things i interested just bcoz frens not accompany...so unlike last time...well maybe i already lost that braveness and courage...how sad...this make me feel lost too...we live for ourselves not for others...so why let others affect u?haix...no no way...i shall not care much...must find my own aim asap...but maybe my true freedom can only come when complete the poly life...well...
sorry mum...send u the cards late...and still dare to ask u buy me a laptop...and thx that u agree...now is my problem...lazy to take the action...
since that stupid feeling comes and goes...i shall not bother...
feel very empty...many things missing in my heart...but who cares...just heck.
eye sight's getting worse...shld i get contact lense?
Sunday, May 07, 2006
super blur during finance tutorial...the teacher make me feel kinda stress also...start to worried liao...buck up buck up...been too slacking already...late for lec...some even skip...then never revise...like wasting time in school? time to stop this already...arh...and shld try to sleep earlier!!
then went cine sing the 2 to 7 pm kbox.expected...yvonne join us hafl way =p realised we sing quite a few female songs...so conclusion male songs nicer? ahha...
food republic full house...then i suggest go ramen ten AGAIN... must be sth wrong with me...have staff meal at ramen ten during work...then...even go out also go eat at ramen ten...siaox me. but this time is coz far east one got new menu...wanna try.
there also full hse...must wait some time to be seated...yea py ard 8 came? haha...coz sum1's working? lolx...juz kidding aniway...they all say the food is better than amk one...i nv order any main course...like nth want to try except the sushi...but it's really not bad...
shir von and sw left first...then the rest of us go wait for elaine off...outside mrt...at first they wanna go home i guess? but don't feel like wanna home yet...then suggest have supper...lol in the end all the 6 of us on...then go long john chit chat...feel abit sad when saw some ah ma need to work at late night...haix they should be sleeping at home instead of working at this timing...why...
cut it short...in the end we share cab home.tired an good day. it was like stay up from 6am sth till the nx day 3am sth? opps but after that kanna nag by grandma...
禾味龙的禾味婆决定要将禾味龙送去保良局，因为她要回乡安渡晚年。小谷咕关心禾味龙会否寂寞，禾味龙告诉她，每晚寂寞的时候，他都会想他们玩过的IQ题目，同埋，会想她一次…………暑假将结，嗱喳面店亦将结束，两个月的经营，没有为谷佬成就出人生一大创举，但却成就了两段嗱喳的初恋。原来初恋是：爱念萌生 关系夭折 暗恋 成功 示爱 失败 吵架分手 突然痊愈 然后揽住第二个又爱又憎......
-->that day accidentally saw this show on tv again...rainie is so sweet in the movie...zhou jun wei also...sweet...this time watched it...feel so touching...plus the background music which is kelly chan's "我们都是这样初恋的"...super nice...maybe becoz it brings me back some of the memories...因为果张千嬅噶YES!CARD...将我地拉埋一齐...初恋...短暂...sweet...simple...pure...and innocent. 保留心中...
recently got quite a number of nice song...chen-i's deng dai...cao ge's shu dao wu da ying wo...etc etc...make my day...
Saturday, April 29, 2006
today another tired day...lesson at 8am also...it really kills me to wake up sooooo early...but what to do...
after school at first want go home rest b4 working one...but in the end change plan then pull sw and shirley go grassroot...had my 2nd time choc fondue there...this time the serving is smaller...erm...quite ok bah...
then working...at first still can be alert and energetic...but i guess ard 8 plus...my eyes really shut me down...plus the seafood fried rice mix with the fondue...don't really feel well...feel so dizzy...when they ask me if i m ok...ya again guess is coz they see my face like tired like that...i just smile lor...or ans YA i m ok...because i don't want to say i am not ok to burden them...and i am trying to get back to normal...so can don't keep asking me...i don't know how to express to others that i am not ok anyway...i am trying to be ok okay...and i will be okay...point out my mistake and ask me wake up if u think i am getting worse ok...but i can say i never slack today lor...so why...misunderstanding is so irritating! guess try to avoid work on fri...i tink i really can't stand it when wake up very early...go school...then work...affects myself...affects other...i don't want.
it's quite sadden really.so near yet so far.the distance like getting further? i feel happy to see u all after some time...but surprisingly...i rather keep quiet when i see u all...maybe is becoz at the working environment...or...complicated feeling...maybe think too much lor...but it's not the same le for sure...wonder when will have kbox like last time...wonder when will la kopi like last time...wonder when will see u all lame together like last time...wonder when will have nice chats like last time...wonder...
okay...but nth i can do...now working...ya maybe just like what winston said...i m like a zombie walking here and there...ahha...coz i feel aimless...maybe...hide in a shell...maybe is a better way
enought of saying...still...will try to keep my smile =)
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
tried this chocolate Fondue.expected whole piece of strawberry instead of slice ones...haha...What's next?Yummy~~
i think to travel around the world and to taste all different types of food are the most happiest dreams in our lives...
but now...not leisure time already...haix.
Mother's Day is coming...time to make a card soon.Grandma will be back soon,will treat her soon as well...
i will not agree with these words..."as long as to see the one u like is happy with the one he/she like...u will feel happy too." really? how to feel happy if u can't be with the one u like...
Saturday, April 22, 2006
project time is coming again soon...stress are expected...but hope we can overcome it and work together =)
nx wed is photography club orientation, thurs is bei quan dao trial, fri sat work, sun drum...whee...
got visit sher's doggie hershey...ultra active? lol haha...hmmm and want to play with kenny asap~~
hmmm but still...want to say that...i don't smile doesn't means anything! i m trying to be more serious during work only...okay.
Monday, April 10, 2006
some pple...u thought u already know them quite well,but maybe is not...sometimes...u feel u are close to some pple...but mayb they don't feel this way. watever la... izit bcoz school reopen soon...? so messy ...sian la.
nvm.it will be fine i guess?
monday: 12 meet @fe. take the rt test. then shopping.
tues:change to kbox @cine meet @ 10.30
thurs:buy books? then work full
friday:seoul garden. meet @1pm. confirm plus chop.
haix the past weeks i have failed to arrange my timing...super super paiseh la keep changing the schedule...i rather they scold me than to say nvm to me...won't do that again.
Sunday, April 09, 2006
after having lunch plus tea break with king@ crystal jade,i rush home and going out meet anna and meh at far east...meh's fren edward also there...and he looks abit matured compare to last time? do u feel happy today? i hope u all did..r u drinking the breezer now? haha...sorry coz i really not sure if i got brings u joy today...sorry...i owe u a piece of cake ok peiyu...nx time after ur exam...jio u go eat cake ok? sorry today i actually wanna stay overnite but my cash can't withdraw frm the atm yet...shit... haix i really treasure the time being with u all really... all the friends out there i really miss u all at this moment.
i don't know what's wrong with me but i just suddenly so dislike the present me...it's like so duno wat...fake? unfriendly? just very negetive...shit...i m like abit losing myself? where the hell m i? shit.
and suddenly i feel abit sick with working. or tired? i tired to hear all the things about working...but who ask me like to buy this buy that and i still gonna pay the drum fee by self...so i gotta continue...but i think...mayb far east is worsen...mayb? haix...no complaine la...u want to have money to spend? then u gotta work what.
to my sec school friends...plus some srjc ones...hey i really miss u all really...haix...i hope things won't change that much...and i hope we will meet each other soon.and meh...i just don't know why but really hope today didnt make u bored ok.
rt pple...i really cherish the time being with u all...maybe when school starts things will not be the same anymore...will not have that much time to see u all...haix...but...haix...hope won't have big changes...but...mayb working just makes some pple change...esp those with big ambitioins?
school gonna reopen again soon...sianz...hope our class can continue have funs together...chiong arh...and wondering abt the cca...
haix but still...where am i? is this the real me?
Friday, April 07, 2006
finally ysd got to talk to meh on phone nia...update lotz news to me...haha...saturday see how's ur plan lar...
shopping today...or mayb shld say window shopping...thought i got nth want to buy already...but then...human like me is just so greedy...saw alot of stuff that wanna buy...hmmm...like that how to save money? sounds so impossible...haix. hmmm and duno why today very lady... and quite interested in the lady stuff...izit bcos i m with the ladylike piggie? haha... and now we got silver nails...ahha...
realise now so many shops sell the lace material clothes...new trend ya...some quite nice...gothic eh?
hmmm shoppinglist___ top,shorts,shoe,skirt,personal stuff... all like over 30 sth...hmmm slowly slowly...
tmr take pay day...after work go king house...think watch "wishing stairs"...scared but want to watch...hmmm...like like dun want to believe this stuff also cannot? like got so many real stories...
mei nan zi hairstyle really nice... now channel u got jimmy lim...bring back childhood memories?
but...why now suddenly feel so empty and aimless? shit.
Monday, April 03, 2006
--=--=--= --=--=--=--=--=--=--= THE PAST --=--=--=--=--=--=--=--=--=--=--=--=--
last monday nite to wed morning...go ramen ten chalet...at first feel abit uncomfortable when being with some unknown crowds...but slowly getting better and had fun playing games and being at the beach.meanwhile also watched "2 become 1"...not becos intereseted in the story but miriam yeuang and ren xian qi who are acting in the movie...haha... wonder why the swimming pool there is not allowed to use...and the chalet ended by visiting the red house...details at mel's blog so lazy to write liao.
last friday...opps i m late for the drum lesson...like again...really paiseh nia...prac the song "something abt you" by five for fighting...abit hard...but learn some new rhythms...quite nice.
after that go cafe cartel@ PS...meet them to celebrate elaine's bday...caramel there is not as nice as coffee bean one...haha...then walk around,go arcade...both the ps one and the mrt there one...didn't know there is an arcade at mrt there...interesting...mainly play the basketball game...woohoo...got free games =p then also go eat fish&co...mainly eat and play that day muahaha...have fun...the details...i know they know can liao =p hahaha...(die die must use this sentense)
eh...don't think want eat cafe cartel le...like not very nice...fish&co still nice la haha...food brings me joy~
(are u sure this one is nice??!)
yesterday,sunday,was suppose to meet @yck at 830 but i told them i really cannot wake up...in the end...tink reach east coast slightly earlier than 12 sth...? hmmm ya feel kinda weird...like nth to talk to him...when kat return her bike and chatting with arcoz...i told them i go cycly myself, i mean it...i want cycle alone...but then he still follow me...scared i lost my way back but sorry...i really want alone ok...by then i can feel abit relax...haix.
then go ramen ten have dinner...by then i feel better...i tink i choose the right place to have dinner...somewhere i familiar with and with them ard.phew. arh really don't know nia...ask me if want go nx sunday again... i was like don't want to put myself into this kind of situation again...but if i reject...like don't know what...but mayb...once feeling gone...hard to b normal fren again...or mayb only apply to me? haix...dont know dont know.
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
time passes so fast...now left slightly more than half month only?lazy to run here and there already...mayb nx holiday then plan my travel plan again...thailand or korea or taiwan nx time?! this holiday one spoilt liao..but nvm...waiting for the nx holiday to recharge~yea~
so now...one so called fan nao down for now...so...can have more time to do my own stuff le...like...swimming? hahaha...hmmm...sunday one...should i go? but...how to face him...sumhow abit awkard...
when u can't even able to make sure of ur own feeling...there's nth u can do. when u don't feel secure...it's hard to move on.
abit miss my black hair nia...always needs time to adapt changes...but then again...there's something made me quite ok with my current hair also haha...
Friday, March 24, 2006
wake up at around 2pm? then meet kingyu...sorry that i spoilt the plan...never swim and stay over nite...shall not dye my hair first...and i scared they nag me...so better go home sleep.nvm..keke there always a chance.hmmm...about my hair...the color called light blonde? don't really remember...hmmm...make me feel very moody on wed when i work...no confidence and feel kinda weird...some suggest me go highlight...but today...after shampooing...i feel better...somehow don't know why...and some of them gif me some confidence...yea i tink i shall not bother about it already...lazy to do anything about it already.let my hair grow back bah.
back to today.erm...shop around with king...when i meet her...she told me my hair make she feel very energetic...then she said my wallet nice...don't worry it will get dirty bcos it's white...just do and buy the things u think is right for u...don't too care about what others think...she's kinda independent somehow.yea...i m care about what others think...but who doesn't? haix.but in the end didn't buy anything and she still haven't settle her present for her fren haha...eat ajisen...hey i seriously prefer ramen ten ok...walk the whole day...but feel like not really in a shopping mood...coz the main reason we go out is to meet each other and chat...itz kinda hard to meet her...coz her jc seems quite busy...the nx meeting might b some time after le...hmm...mayb i will break my promise? mayb me and her will try both things? drink and go...see club... one day? don't know...some times it's kinda weird to talk to some one in mandrain when i know they can speak cantonese...feels weird...but when other pple are ard...switch between cantonese and mandrain somehow makes me feel weird...can i talk in cantonese all the way?haix... hey ya...WILL NEVER GIVE UP OK. JIA YOU.
after that watch dorm with ling derrick chuan and winston at j8...at first don't really want to watch wan...coz don't want watch scary show...scared...but in the end...the story is a touching one...eh...tears come out le...touching...and kinda sad...
" don't need to understand guys"?...yea i don't bother already...sometimes u feel closed with some people...but sometimes u feel that u actually like don't really know them well after all...so should not bother too much le...and ya...can a person very closed with ALOT people? suddenly i lose confidence in such pple...nvm i understand enough already ahha...and ya...starting to feel numb towards working...don't have the energetic feeling already...want to tell andrick i sumhow miss him la...miss his lame face nia...haix...i tink slowly...my working attitude will back to sqaure one again? hopefully not but who knows...don't bother.
shit i always regret about my decision...again...hmmm dat chalet? got abit sian feeling for now.
tmr will not be home again...hmmm...
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
suddenly feel like doing some household stuff sia...firstly bought the cross stitch which currently got ard 6 lines there only...then bought alot raw chicken wings again...plan to cook it by self again~hopefully this time no raw taste...then bought jelly powder...want to try make jelly also(if u want eat tell me lolx)...too bad my hse don't have baker...otherwise can try make other food...hmmm.
last saturday early in the morning go see mel's idol audition...hehe quite nice...then after that meet anna first...plan to cut and dye hair...in the end reach there...told me my hair dresser quit liao...all the way to commen wealth do nth sia...hmm and now suddenly no hair dresser for me...then jurong pt those...dye one color 129 plus sth...too ex liao...then after that meet kat...at marina square...see cat walking awhile...got cute gal =) then finally found a wallet! white ripcurl! kinda riskly nia buy white...coz i m like kinda dirty type haha...hope can keep it clean for a longer period coz i like it!nice ripcurl.
got go foodfair also...lol food leh...must go take a look...erm...the fishball not bad...but overall the food there not that impressive nia hahahaha...
plan to eat steamboat but all feel like abit full...haha postpone again...in the end go longjohn eat...both of them now very enthu in playing the maple story...hmm the characters qutie cute...but i kinda lazy to redownload and lazy to play? haha mayb one day sian sian then try bah =p
Then sunday also consider early in the morning meet derrick mel jw chuan and liling go out...lolz i m the first to reach there? eat n shop awhile then take neo...keke...now realise guys got more facial expression during take pic...more fang de kai...haha...but sianz 2pm nid to go back work...should not anyhow make promise...hmm...i don't want da qiu to take over me coz i want him enjoy his day...hmmm m i made a wrong decision? coz in the end he like left early also...then i work 2 hrs then let him take over le..
ysd...yea finally manage to go swimming...with eve...all the way go woodlands...but haiyo havent swim enuff then rain...sian...though i don't wanna get tanned but i rather see the sun than rain...
amk ramen ten now got lotz changes...stupid far east...haix...mayb needs time to adapt...but definately not now...i don't want u all go!!!!! ps: rmb don't overstress urself...u are a fulltime student,not a fulltime worker!and smile,don't be so sensitive...relax.
hmmm later should b go cut hair...dye? mayb?
up coming plans-------:
-thurs should be meet ky...swim at nite...staying over at her hse
-fri afternoon drum lesson.
-jack's place...haha...must keep my promise to piggie nia..
-seoul garden. (all plan to eat on weekdays...student price~haha)
-more sports! swimming..cycling. and kboxing...cooking...movie?
Friday, March 17, 2006
arh...korean so nice~~~
[typical mei nan zi with mei nan zi hairstyle!]
tmr go saloon...hmmm tempted to dye the same color as him.but don't know what his color calls...hmmm should i waste money on dye hair again?
finally...have a good rest today...don't really want to go temple so nv go with them...hmmm maybe don't dare to go inside...? don't know... arh why nowadays become more and more dang xiao like dat...shit...
missing some people...some old friends now. especially...
轩.heard that u are doing fine now...i felt better somehow.coz you did nth wrong yet i did this to you.mayb you don't feel anything now already? but the memories somehow in my heart...i don't think i got the courage to see you again...you are loyal and good to me...not easy to find nowadays...guys nowadays...dots...really no comments.hope you will continue doing fine...
her.haix why suddenly become like dat?coz i graduate b4 u do?the sms u reply is abit cold like that...i wonder which school u get in...i miss those days...should i msg u again? but i don't want to read cold msg again.i wanna go swimming wif u again haix...
her.we are thousands miles away.to follow ur dream so u went to uk.hard to keep in touch online somehow...but everytime u back i know our feeling will be there again...though we may have experienced diff things which change us...but hope that relationship won't change.
颂贤.i still rmb what u said after our p6 exam...that time i feel nth and i think the feeling is short coz we are still so small.but i never told u this...now my turn...and i don't know why...until now...the special feeling for u never fades...but i know we are impossible.just frens.when can i see you again...and i will keep this in my heart...
雷鸣辉.暧昧? 系.我比五到PROMISE 比任何人.系你话我翻去可以揾你...but since u like that.i got nth to say already.
and more...in my heart.
i thought i will feel nth for the changes in rt but...no...i did...it affects me. u said i worry too much? haha wonder if u feel that my worry for others is extra...ok but i think i don't care already...ya worry so much for what...will pple appreciate? mayb they just think u so extra...talk so much.