blog b4 2005 ends

Wow i m kinda HIGH now...wow...my fren is coming...wow~these few days...ok la...not bad...except nid to do projects.

blog before year twozerozerofive ends~

last thurs Dec22:
exchange presents with my class gal buddies...muahahaha...i received shirley's one and i gave mine to lq.then xchange cards and eat chocs.

last friday Dec23:
morning drum...then meet shirley...followed by sw,eve and her fren.the world is small...his fren work at ramen ten too...but is fareast branch.go east coast cycling.raining and my white shirt becum super dirty...wow.next time should try roller blade too!

last saturday Dec24(x'mas eve):
go Expo...cityharvest service...nice show...and got many blue blacks due to the rides.then last min go down ramen ten xchange present. i buy the turtle...its cute~! i want it too...haha...

last sun (christmas)

work half day.then go orchard with meh and anna.super crowed.and we slacking around as usual haha.

Dec26 monday

we accompany anna choose her wedding dinner clothing...

tues to thurs

been in school.doing the same thing.project.but half of the time...maybe slacking?ahha...

yea. tmr...31st dec will be a good day! see meh perform...then count down...then if still can make it...go find my fren~yea.

Happy New Year!

miss u

The main reason why i don't really want...or scared to welcome those special days like chrismas...new year etc come...is because...they make me miss u all terribly,but i can't see you all i know that...that's the saddist thing isn't it...and can't deny that...although nearly after a year already...but sometimes...i still think about how we were in the past...hopefully this won't last long...coz...it's over.and the one in usa...guess u won't expect u are missed by me too...oh ya tinghui...did u know that today when i walked pass a buzstop, i was so shocked that i saw a gal so looks like u...i was like kept looking at her for don't know how many sec...she really looks like u...when will you be back? or shall we meet@ Aus if possible...imaging how great it will be.

kinda mess up...like so many things need to be done...
guess year 2006's new year has no meaning for me...but nvm...i will call you all.

summary

Summary from last Friday Till Today...

Last Friday Lq bday,had dinner@ Swensens...the chicken baked rice is really nice.yummy~but the ice cream there is not as nice as what i expected.and lq kept rejecting the second pair of ear ring we gave her...so bad rite...ok but good that finally accepted it...otherwise i want to da ren liao...but too bad missed meh's performance...nvm there's always a next time ya?

[try to act cool...but... like not really cool eh?lol]

[not my ice cream,mine is just banana split...ahha]

[oh ya...and don't order this...will regret one...haha]

then...
these few days fill with projectz and tests...kinda moody days...

then...
this Wed go xz hse had dinner...long time nv see her,cw and lion liao eh...nice hommie mummy food~arh taste nice man...the pork rib...the mushroom...the fish...omg...nice!i like to go friend's house have my meal...it's warm and nice~then play mahjong...mini size mahjong...nv see b4...hmmm...suddenly quite miss my mum.really a great different between HOME and HOUSE.

xz kept asking me if i m very tired...coz my face shows it...at first i didnt realise i m really that lack of sleep...until today...i finally so scared of myself...my temper is horrible today! firstly there's this stupid hao lian guy came in tok abt the lecture time slot...but walao...the way he said and his attitude is totally sux...command and scold us like that.what a shit. he say all those shit in english,but when my class pple go find him and tok to him again...this time he suddenly change to full chinese...nvm...shld not say more abt him...wanna puke.werid guys keep appearing and increasing nowadays.ok and during the stats lesson...duno why i dun find any of the jokes funny...or mayb even feel irritated?then...come to the worst part...i even shout at "you"...ok finally i tink i m back to normal during management lecture and i apologize to "you"...arh sorry if any of you suffer from my serious mood swings these days...i don't realise too...cant control...i tink i better change my body clock...something is just not right...this is not me...i never...or nearly never shout at my friends before~and i used to smile alot...control me please...but i wonder how to change the body clock...it seems not easy...and i think i need to learn more about when should joke and when should not...it will cause misunderstood u know...

erm...and again...Sorry...

plan it well

should have some plans now? it's been so messy since school startz like that...and now can arrange the modules frm most favourite to least already...i guess...

frm most to least:
-->management
-->econs
-->DCN(1604)
-->Jap and stats (both headache)
-->all the Java ( super lost man)

but no choice...work hard for it...hopefully won't slack so much...

Project: java (stock checking system); stats project; management project(interview a manager)

upcoming tests:
week6: jap ica; java written test (topic 3 and 4); DCN(chap 1 to 3 )
week7: Management Ica( chap 1 to 5); Econs Ica(chap 1 to 4 ); jap reading test

each week shall...:
--just work for a day or two;
--don't go out too often...go a day or two(try to control...during the test and project period);
--drum lesson once a week;
--la kopi on thurs after night class haha...(sometimes) ;
--if possible,do some exercise, jian fei...

and shall...
gossip lesser...be more attentive during lessons...do tutorials...lesser mood swing and bad tempered...and forget abt the cca first...


hopefully can follow this...be more motivated pls...

alone

Arghhh...i don't even know how to express what's wrong with me...there's too much stuff screwed up together...but i really don't know how to say...i rather keep quiet...why like that...maybe imaging when your parentz are not here with you...your granny who used to be with you not here ...some of your friends are not here too...then...u gotta face all those shit...maybe that's the feeling...further more...those irritating people keep appearing in front of you or disturbing you...acting like a childish kid...what is this man...

should heck care them...yup heck.
so far what i have learnt? arhg...projectz...must contribute...but i don't know how to express well?like so weak in teamwork? ............beta stop thinking to0 much?...it doesn't help.

sickening

Can't you just stop telling me all those stuff? can't you just share a thought for me? but i doubt u can be such a caring person. u are happy...but can't you feel i m down? whatever.today i m not there...i nv show how disappointed i m...coz i also don't know i really feel so sad until today.i underestimate it.

there are obstacles which stop u frm following ur dream...such as people.sometimes when u can't mix well with other pple...it can stop u frm continuing ur interest.mayb i m too care about it.

i want to avoid u. from now on...