Wednesday, March 29, 2006

wed

whee just return frm rt chalet then slp till 6pm~wohoo...kinda shiok nia sleep till i like...haha but lazy to write about it for now...mayb ltr.

time passes so fast...now left slightly more than half month only?lazy to run here and there already...mayb nx holiday then plan my travel plan again...thailand or korea or taiwan nx time?! this holiday one spoilt liao..but nvm...waiting for the nx holiday to recharge~yea~

so now...one so called fan nao down for now...so...can have more time to do my own stuff le...like...swimming? hahaha...hmmm...sunday one...should i go? but...how to face him...sumhow abit awkard...

when u can't even able to make sure of ur own feeling...there's nth u can do. when u don't feel secure...it's hard to move on.

abit miss my black hair nia...always needs time to adapt changes...but then again...there's something made me quite ok with my current hair also haha...

Friday, March 24, 2006

24march

hmm...tired.
wake up at around 2pm? then meet kingyu...sorry that i spoilt the plan...never swim and stay over nite...shall not dye my hair first...and i scared they nag me...so better go home sleep.nvm..keke there always a chance.hmmm...about my hair...the color called light blonde? don't really remember...hmmm...make me feel very moody on wed when i work...no confidence and feel kinda weird...some suggest me go highlight...but today...after shampooing...i feel better...somehow don't know why...and some of them gif me some confidence...yea i tink i shall not bother about it already...lazy to do anything about it already.let my hair grow back bah.

back to today.erm...shop around with king...when i meet her...she told me my hair make she feel very energetic...then she said my wallet nice...don't worry it will get dirty bcos it's white...just do and buy the things u think is right for u...don't too care about what others think...she's kinda independent somehow.yea...i m care about what others think...but who doesn't? haix.but in the end didn't buy anything and she still haven't settle her present for her fren haha...eat ajisen...hey i seriously prefer ramen ten ok...walk the whole day...but feel like not really in a shopping mood...coz the main reason we go out is to meet each other and chat...itz kinda hard to meet her...coz her jc seems quite busy...the nx meeting might b some time after le...hmm...mayb i will break my promise? mayb me and her will try both things? drink and go...see club... one day? don't know...some times it's kinda weird to talk to some one in mandrain when i know they can speak cantonese...feels weird...but when other pple are ard...switch between cantonese and mandrain somehow makes me feel weird...can i talk in cantonese all the way?haix... hey ya...WILL NEVER GIVE UP OK. JIA YOU.

after that watch dorm with ling derrick chuan and winston at j8...at first don't really want to watch wan...coz don't want watch scary show...scared...but in the end...the story is a touching one...eh...tears come out le...touching...and kinda sad...

" don't need to understand guys"?...yea i don't bother already...sometimes u feel closed with some people...but sometimes u feel that u actually like don't really know them well after all...so should not bother too much le...and ya...can a person very closed with ALOT people? suddenly i lose confidence in such pple...nvm i understand enough already ahha...and ya...starting to feel numb towards working...don't have the energetic feeling already...want to tell andrick i sumhow miss him la...miss his lame face nia...haix...i tink slowly...my working attitude will back to sqaure one again? hopefully not but who knows...don't bother.

shit i always regret about my decision...again...hmmm dat chalet? got abit sian feeling for now.

tmr will not be home again...hmmm...

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

lucky again

phew... can continue my holiday w/o worries...hmmm...should i change my "last min then study" style? now thinking back is like so risky...

suddenly feel like doing some household stuff sia...firstly bought the cross stitch which currently got ard 6 lines there only...then bought alot raw chicken wings again...plan to cook it by self again~hopefully this time no raw taste...then bought jelly powder...want to try make jelly also(if u want eat tell me lolx)...too bad my hse don't have baker...otherwise can try make other food...hmmm.

last saturday early in the morning go see mel's idol audition...hehe quite nice...then after that meet anna first...plan to cut and dye hair...in the end reach there...told me my hair dresser quit liao...all the way to commen wealth do nth sia...hmm and now suddenly no hair dresser for me...then jurong pt those...dye one color 129 plus sth...too ex liao...then after that meet kat...at marina square...see cat walking awhile...got cute gal =) then finally found a wallet! white ripcurl! kinda riskly nia buy white...coz i m like kinda dirty type haha...hope can keep it clean for a longer period coz i like it!nice ripcurl.



got go foodfair also...lol food leh...must go take a look...erm...the fishball not bad...but overall the food there not that impressive nia hahahaha...

plan to eat steamboat but all feel like abit full...haha postpone again...in the end go longjohn eat...both of them now very enthu in playing the maple story...hmm the characters qutie cute...but i kinda lazy to redownload and lazy to play? haha mayb one day sian sian then try bah =p

Then sunday also consider early in the morning meet derrick mel jw chuan and liling go out...lolz i m the first to reach there? eat n shop awhile then take neo...keke...now realise guys got more facial expression during take pic...more fang de kai...haha...but sianz 2pm nid to go back work...should not anyhow make promise...hmm...i don't want da qiu to take over me coz i want him enjoy his day...hmmm m i made a wrong decision? coz in the end he like left early also...then i work 2 hrs then let him take over le..

ysd...yea finally manage to go swimming...with eve...all the way go woodlands...but haiyo havent swim enuff then rain...sian...though i don't wanna get tanned but i rather see the sun than rain...

amk ramen ten now got lotz changes...stupid far east...haix...mayb needs time to adapt...but definately not now...i don't want u all go!!!!! ps: rmb don't overstress urself...u are a fulltime student,not a fulltime worker!and smile,don't be so sensitive...relax.

hmmm later should b go cut hair...dye? mayb?

up coming plans-------:
-wed working
-thurs should be meet ky...swim at nite...staying over at her hse
-fri afternoon drum lesson.
-sat work

more plans-------:
-jack's place...haha...must keep my promise to piggie nia..
-seoul garden. (all plan to eat on weekdays...student price~haha)
-more sports! swimming..cycling. and kboxing...cooking...movie?

Friday, March 17, 2006

nice songs and korean

Nice songs make your day. just dl few "xian jian qi xia zhuan" songs...really nice! esp ah san's "yi zhi hen an jing". arh...nice...got feeling arh.

arh...korean so nice~~~


[typical mei nan zi with mei nan zi hairstyle!]

[nice smile...]


tmr go saloon...hmmm tempted to dye the same color as him.but don't know what his color calls...hmmm should i waste money on dye hair again?

rest at home

enough. i think i was abit overloaded. something is missing in my heart and i don't know why. feels abit messy and empty. nvm...slowly sort out...hopefully...

finally...have a good rest today...don't really want to go temple so nv go with them...hmmm maybe don't dare to go inside...? don't know... arh why nowadays become more and more dang xiao like dat...shit...

missing some people...some old friends now. especially...

轩.heard that u are doing fine now...i felt better somehow.coz you did nth wrong yet i did this to you.mayb you don't feel anything now already? but the memories somehow in my heart...i don't think i got the courage to see you again...you are loyal and good to me...not easy to find nowadays...guys nowadays...dots...really no comments.hope you will continue doing fine...

her.haix why suddenly become like dat?coz i graduate b4 u do?the sms u reply is abit cold like that...i wonder which school u get in...i miss those days...should i msg u again? but i don't want to read cold msg again.i wanna go swimming wif u again haix...

her.we are thousands miles away.to follow ur dream so u went to uk.hard to keep in touch online somehow...but everytime u back i know our feeling will be there again...though we may have experienced diff things which change us...but hope that relationship won't change.

颂贤.i still rmb what u said after our p6 exam...that time i feel nth and i think the feeling is short coz we are still so small.but i never told u this...now my turn...and i don't know why...until now...the special feeling for u never fades...but i know we are impossible.just frens.when can i see you again...and i will keep this in my heart...

雷鸣辉.暧昧? 系.我比五到PROMISE 比任何人.系你话我翻去可以揾你...but since u like that.i got nth to say already.

and more...in my heart.

i thought i will feel nth for the changes in rt but...no...i did...it affects me. u said i worry too much? haha wonder if u feel that my worry for others is extra...ok but i think i don't care already...ya worry so much for what...will pple appreciate? mayb they just think u so extra...talk so much.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

tuesday

go there talk to the lady...but...erm kinda expected...nth can do to change the result...nth can do except accept it lor...my mum ask me to get over it again...and ask me go other places sia...ahha...see first bah...mum...never give up.

then...today shopping again...nearly overslept again...but in the end still late...sorry nia =x yesterday and today both have nice days...life without working sometimes are just great.really relaxing...get a top that kinda like...but i spent most money on food.erm...ya...eating is the best thing to relax urself...hmmm but wanna jian fei lei...hmmm...but...still...can't resist food...the far east ramen ten...price higher..but food...no comments. took some neos...muahaha
...hmm but still haven't get my wallet and pump...mayb slowly find bah.




got my cross stitch that day...the precious moments one...a gal with doggies...till now nearly never touch it yet...wonder when i can finish it...eh...few months? then...wanna learn some cooking lei...wanna exercise more also...wanna get away the fats...but my determination level somehow kinda low...

today is the last day andrick work at amk rt...they said eat together so i went down after say bye to py and sw...hmmm...although he only change to another outlet...not quit...but sumhow bu she de...and not used to it...haix wonder what are the changes will be facing...

have chats with them...everyone has their own minds and thinking...i have my own too but i guess sometimes i m easy to get affected by others...and i hope my words can make them feel better somehow...rmb don't let the environment and people changes u to another person...don't lose yourself...mayb u will feel that no one understands you...but mayb others also feel the same way?erm don't know what to say...just be yourself...we care for each others...even though it might not be shown.erm...any fan nao just pour it out and share k...everyone got their own xin shi and stress...don't think too hard...learn how to relax sometimes...and at this stage...i don't think we should take our "job" too serious..."work like u don't need the money"...i saw this from a tv show and i think its right. my mum said in the future more than half of your life is working...don't work too hard now...enjoy more...she always ask me go learn something new...erm...but lazy nia...cross stitch is new for me anyway haha...and gonna resume my drum lesson...kinda slack liao.

hmmm wanna dye hair also...but lazy now again...opps...and hope to meet my friends again soon. =)

we all need an listening ear.and we can be the listening ear also.

Friday, March 10, 2006

why reject again...

WHY? i thought 2006 is quite a good year...but why...why do this to me again...why turn me off again...why...

why so heartless...do u people read the documents and files clearly...? do u do u? i m so confident u know...we all so ready u know...why can't u just let me have a merry holiday?why like dat...i don't understand why...why must u break pple's hope again and again... why like that GOD tell me why like dat...

i m sorry mum...i always can't do things right and properly...i really not sure if is me whom spoilt all this...i m so nervous when the lady ask me question... u scold me loudly when i told u what i said...i thought u will scold me even worse when i told u it's not successful again...but u didn't...instead u stop scolding immediately and ask me to pull myself up...go buy what i like or go where i like...to get over this...u are so understanding...i tt u will scold me but u comfort me instead...yea mother always knows what she should do and say to comfort their kids who are being hurt... i scare u will b very disappointed also but u are stronger than i think...and u also sense my feeling now...no one can replace this...the bonding of a child and mother... i think...

i even saw quan yi feng there...i m so confident to tell myself... wow...must b a lucky day...why...i don't understand...our time money effort wasted again...i don't care...i hope monday i can try my very last best...though i know the chance is little...

so i stuck here again...going nowhere.

haix when i am ready to go to the IT show today...why call and tell me this...why spoilt my holiday and spoilt my day today. why u pple just so cruel?why break me down again? haix.