Monday, June 23, 2008

tiring...

time passes really fast...i seem abit used to my job already, thu it's like less than 2 months only?
but also, as time goes by, i know myself better, i know i don't like this kind of work, this kind of environment, it seems easier and relax to talk to people in school environment ya? also, my punctuality really lousy which i really wish to change...then i realise i don't really like to follow rules, i don't like formal wear, so if only i got enough capital, and with the knowlege on how to run a business, i really wanna have a small buisness like food stores with my family, simple and nice...hmmm but it's so hard, firstly haven't form a family, secondly no capital yet~

now suddenly really feel the pressure about money issue, cause like so many fees need to pay and my mother this time like don't give in...not like last time i say i poor then she help abit, because i m working already, no excuse to ask money from her already eh...

sometimes really wanna cry it out loud to feel better, now all the pressures make my heart feels kinda heavy.

although school life is good, but sometimes i am still glad dat poly is over, coz looking back, it ain't happy throughout all the 3 years, and sometimes, i don't feel like get in touch with some people, well...

and why is it so hard to get over it~and i m now like being controlled, hope that after get what my mother wants me to get, i can get what i get as well, i wanna experience a new lifestyle, and i know it's gonna be super tough...poor life over there? lols...

and guys are really getting disguisting! what's in their mind? yucks.

i can blog during work today sia..can see how free i m today...zz but i dont like lei..coz act busy is hard~

i wanna get license and fly away from here. but then? after that? where will i belong in the future?

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