Thursday, August 18, 2005
This pic can express my feeling for
Don't get to know someone too deep.u will b hurt.true sometimes.
today my feelings are very messy.VERY.happy...sad...lone...cold...high...low...outcast..,whatever.
everyday u might meet different pple...Day by day... get to know them bit by bit...u might start to feel that they are not the same as what u think b4.can b beta...can be worse.it's so tired sometimes to adapt the changes...real tired.tired to find out a person's true color also...so i think juz don't bother.when it comes...let it comes...
u won't know when u will b disliked or hated by someone...u won't know what you say or how u behave will make someone sick of u too...just like the pple and the frenz ard u...u won't know when u open ur heart to them...if they will open theirs for you too...or juz treat u as a joke and the gossip topic of the day.i will never know...and mayb that's why i m sensitive sumtimes.the world is complicated.
the feeling of unsafe and insecure increases.i treat u sincerely but can u do the same too?but sumtimes i can't even b true to myself,let alone u.i don't know myself well let alone u. feel beta when hide inside a shell? sometimes at least?
i don't know.its like...everyday is changing...everyone's moving on except u.a person looks fierce might b very friendly...a person looks cute might b wicked...a person looks happy might b sad...a person always smile might b goody goody or even backstab u...mayb i might b one? who knows? mayb i accidentally becum a backstabber without knowing it? who knows.
i think it's really good to have a religion to depend on...i believe it will change you to b a better person...this sunday...hope i can find sum answers...pls...